bad luck come again...

well i forget to write all the past thing that happen...hmmm let it pass ba..anyway nothing making me really really happy happen..just bad bad bad bad incredibly bad luck..i wanna die now at this minute and reborn..haha and i realize i cant..


well i mention it before that the way i like to die..now i discover so way (for myself only)..hmmm whether by eating some ubat tidur well thats only if no ppl rescue me,if they do then i will be suffer..and then i plan on drinking some dinamo well that will die with a white and all the blup blup(i duno what to call those disgusting white bubble flow from the mouth) yikes...


just wait for time..well sometimes accidently kena langgar kereta at school..kedebang wah...nice o but the my corpse will fly away..yahoo...but if its there after that accident then i bet it will be blood all around and i will be the penunggu sekolah..haha...


okay enough with all of this nonsense(well i wish this nonsense is reality xp)..haha okay actually i am sad these few day for some reason..one of the reason is i dun like to gaduh with my family but then it happen a lot lately..my papa rarely scold me much (well sumtimes..)duno what sin i make in the past that make me deserve this all...


i duno whether its his working pressure or my fault..anyway i duno how to say but then that day (hmmm around18-4-08) i watch a disney channel original movie called "tru confession" its really touching..i was crying after that..i like disney channel original movie.some of it make me cry and its really touching..well i cry almost all the time..chiu..


hmmm i receive an email from my sis that contain 3 picture,the picture of a girl around 5 years old who's father is dead and i feel like "am i too lucky to have a daddy?" or "isn she bad luck than me?"..i have my own family and not an orphan but now she is..so i cried that girl is so young and yet she is only 5 years old..


despite the looks (hmmm maybe i am too nonsense?..well duno how to express the word..ppl nowaday almost all care about the looks..who will say heart with u??when u say heart they will say "who cares about heart??") no matter how beautiful u are but if u heart is black then u are just uglier than a dog..i just want to express this word I LOVE YOU to all my family members..


these day she din seem to be get along wit me well so i go and find other friend..and know what?now i can be alone and din feel that without her i am lonely..without her i can be more happy..who is her??hmmm i got mention her before but forget it..she is a NEVERMIND..


oh ya and i like anime,manga or comic (especially the gempak starz company one its nice..i owned some and each time i open and read it again and again sometimes it make me more relax..i hope to get all of them *dreaming*) kedebuk..ah i am awake..


well i plan on drawing some comic in my school magazine but i duno what to write..any ideas??well i need to pass it up before 30-4-08 i think so and i did some seloka 4science2,some funny stories and now i wan to draw some..


i plan to write a touching essay but i duno what to write..maybe some story about me??(thats too nonsense baaa) hmmm how bout some love story??(hmmm i scare the teacher scold me o)...i read some ppl essay at he school magazine that say about "a tragic birthday","what a girl really want"and "something about guys" its all nice..i hope to write one..


well my mid year exam is coming..hope to die before spm..so stress with all the sombong ppl around me..know u all pandai pandai la no need to chuan(sombong at) me la...okay fine i just need to do my best right??hmmm my papa always say that if lahir me better lahir an egg and eat it..well i suppose thats something if u say it will hurt someone...


i always dream to born in a normal family,anak tunggal(i promise not to be manja),pretty face,the one ppl will love(love i mean sayang) ..well u think i want to be like i am now??short,hate by ppl,anak bongsu.always be scold,not pretty,no brain,bad luck...not enough yet there are still more..


well i am tired of all this..oh ya how about die by tiredness??nice idea haha...i am already gila jor...bye bee..