i....i need to....

i....i need....i need to.......to awaken and reborn....i need to be stronger...i need to become powerful instead of sitting here and sigh for my life....this life is uncompareable to my sister's life who come to this world earlier than me....i cried when i know it...i hope this wasn too late for me to be praying and do my best from now on...

karen is being awaken.......today i put this pic of CJ7 (picture above) as my msn pic and my friend ask..."u like 7chai so much?" then i reply..."20% i love myself 80%" and she say "zhong yao percent ar?then wat is 100 percent?" well i dun understand muc her english...can u understand?okay...and then i replied "the thing 100% i love is myself plus GOD plus family plus friends and all the thing belongs to me"...

and then lately i see him a lot at school...i bet myself still cant forget him gua...yeah finally i know he is in 4 perdagangan 1 i thought he was 4p2 haiz...he is just in the class 2nd floor opposite my class and i am at the third floor...haiz....maybe that time when i see him in 4p2 was because some bc combine class or anything...well i check his class at the exam kedudukan at the corridor of the pejabat...

and this is another problem...another him...always asking me "do u love me??i dont think so"...why u juz dun believe me??if i break wit u,i would end up making enemy wit u...so dun force me....i ......duno ......wat to do.....the thing i can do is cry and pray.....or shud i say there is nothing more i can do....i am so stress....

*blink blink*

ermmmm well these day i see him a lot but my feelings still din fade away..my eyes keep on following him,its nt like i want to..i dun hav self-control..that the worse..lol my lovely fren is so funny today she being called "penyu" because the style she take her bag and her bag shape like penyu...hmmm i am curious why nt kura-kura??..i have no idea...


and then and then..there is a form 5 guys ask her if she got hanphone..unluckly no..hehe..so lucky la her..so many people pikat her..so cute nex time i stick her pic haha..maybe..she is so soft...soffy..hahaha..and then and then..there is a guy form 4sc4 like her and write it on her table...wow sugoi(amazing) thats a......(duno how to say that word) sugoi...it write "to shoo yuen..i love u(in chinese) from....."(aiya i no need write here or then the whole worlf will know..well i am not so rapat wit him too...or should i say i duno him at all just know he is a monkey/play boy by judging his attitude)..he wrote big big on the table..wow..


and then the malay ppl(hmmm i suppose the gangster one la,huh wat 4sc2 also have gangster??yeah thats right..well even 4sc1 have...i duno how they study..i never see them study kacau ppl got la)...yeah and the malay ppl always kacau her ahaha thats the keburukan for being so pretty..gambateh no shoo yuen-chan ^^


exam is next week...yesterday,the day before yesterday i also see him..why i avoid from him??cis still cant get the answer...i plan on forgetting him but its useless..so now i plan on loving him more..i hope it works lor...because avoid and hating him was painful to me...i will try..he is such a beban to me..haiz wish i NEVER know him(nt logic,i already know him baa)


keke hoho si penyu oh si penyu..comel nye awak ^^
shoo yuen and soya bean chan so cute and clever..they are cc ppl nt ll ppl...u know wat is ll ppl??one is "lala"(gangster) and lcly(well u know)..they are cute and clever ahaha..


exam making me so stress so gomenasai to the ppl i scold coz cant control myself..i think that all...i should love him more...

lollipop....

wats wit the title??grrr i aslo duno...i dun like lollipop so muc..today was so funny about my lisan..yeah as usual i was the first one(cis why i am not the first one in exam...nt fair..)and so as usual i was lazy..teacher tell us to find it and i did forget it and actually i plan on buying a berita harian around rm1.80??or rm1.50??whatever...


yeah so??i din find anything to talk so i talk rubbish with teacher...u know wat is rubbish??in chinese its (fei hua) using peparu to talk (my guys friend teach me)..ahaha yeah i did talk about pembuangan sampah...i din prepared so what i did was...luckly its bm lisan and not bi oral..if bi i already died scoring zero mark in my oral but it was lisan so i selamba jek walk to teacher..this is our conversation..oh ya that time i remember that teacher was so heng(geram) and i selamba said....

me:selamat sejahtera....
teacher:*still so heng*
me:*saying all about rubbish*
teacher:*show some reaction* hmmm okay ni la markah lisan u ya...

and i was like "haiz must be the worse"...*monolog dalaman*
yeah so what i did was....i translate my bi oral to bm lisan in just 1 minute...OMG i cant believe i did it..at least i try...and it pass so i close my eyes and went to my place and my friend ask me bla bla bla??and i say la..they a guys ask me "hw was it??" and i answer "hw was it??like that la" and he say "u prepared meh??" and i say "no" he say "then?" and i answer "just translate my english oral to malay la" and he said "u still remember meh??" and said "yeah"...


after 3 minute and then teacher say that i am selamba and thats what she wan...everybody was looking at me and i dare to look back at them..i am thinking "wat??"(completely my brain was going makan angin then i regain my conscious...oh the teacher was satisfied gua..well lisan is something u say selamba and not hafal..)


i already did close my eyes and it pass...and one more is today taking pic for pengawas,pps and kelab....why kelab no me,i am form 4 ajk leh...penolong haha..nvm i am nt that excited wit taking pic..and so i be kuli for 3 ppl(pei yin,shoo yuen and soik yin) because they go taking pps pic so i take their books to the chemistry lab from the physic lab on the way there was a guy name danny ask me "wah kah yan take so muc book,u can?wan my help?" and i answer "no need le"(i scare hutang budi to guys..they suddenly my monitor(girl) come and say "naik atas...." i was like "naik mana heaven ka??" aiyoyo..so berat so terpaksa go to class from chemistry lab...feel like asking money being kuli for them but they help me a lot so nvm la...


oh ya on the way balik kelas my one more chinese guy ask me "come la i help la" and i tolak the offer too,i said "oh no need le..thx le.." and then i say "i need to stand straight,keep it up" and nt so suffer i sampai kelas...fuh leganye...on the way to kelas from chemi lab chai jing was helping me taking all the pencil box too..thank chai jing,i could not do it without her...actually what she take is tamarai part but then she say "i go take water ar" then she din come back..*sweat* this tamarai...feel wanna rip her 18 part..


my class has 5 chinese girl include me...3 are pps and 1 are pengawas so i am the pure/normal and one of them ask me "'then u are saying we are all non pure and abnormal" lol i din mean it...and only 1 chinese guy..lately he is been so active..biasa he only like sitting there and dreaming and SLEEPING..lol...actually i like him at first he was so cute and clever..but then he talk like......urg suan i target other ppl lur~~~


and yeah my papa giv me an alarm for my birthday present(isn it too early??it was nt so good in chinese...song chong(for the one who pass away..)

alah....

grrrr this was not chuan enuf??chih the number 2 in the whole form 4 is soooooooo chuan...the number 1 is a chinese and number 2 is an indian(my primary SCHOOLMATE not so shuang him la)..number 1 is 4sc4 student..i never ever tot he wil get number 1 with his playful attitude...but at the reality he get it..i will remember him...


why nowaday guys like to talk bahasa kasar and summore??i kena wit 3 guys..and i will definitely remember them..two are my age and one are my senior..okay suan liao..


haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz haiz....my friend ask me why i "haiz" then i answer relationship...she say so??and i WAN to ask "hey can u tell me hw many metre is hell form here??" but i din ask...


erm my friends name is always "y" at the back or "s" at the front..
my classmate chinese is all y at the back include me but exclude chai jing coz she is j at the back..
i will list from the oldest ahaha (x mengaku diri tua la tu)...
pei Yin-our leader haha...(birthday in may)
hui Ying-she is not my class but anyway...a rather genius person ba..(in june)
shoo Yuen-our cute and pretty maiden in the whole form 4??oh ya she is soooo tulus one...(in august)
soik Yin-as the name as soik as eva (soik mean pretty or sumthing like that la)..(in october)
kah Yan-mie..(december)

and then here are the "s" name at the second name in chinese...also from the oldest..
Sim xie-yeah the only guys i know thats always so gentle...(may)
Shu wen-my best friend hehe..we always gaduh one from form1 until form3..(july)
Shoo yuen-rujuk up there..(august)
Soik yin-rujuk up there..she is exactly the same date as me but diff two month..(october)

i THINK this all gua..yeah yeah..
haiz wat do u think of some relaxing time...?sure nice right??
i wonder if the ppl got all the following would be so nice and say perfect right??
-money
-face
-beauty
-heart
-brain
nice huh but if without heart are juz rubbish right??...
kekeke...if i could drive where do u think the first place i will go??
hmmm i wonder..
-helping my father??
-bringing my mom to shopping??(thats only if she dare to be my passenger ahaha)
-shopping wit friends??
-going church with my sis and friends??
-or even go on alone makan angin??
hmmm i wonder these question myself too but then it need nex year after spm because my birthday is on december but if my birthday is on january also the same..my papa wont give me get my licent until i pass my spm..haiz...after drive u can get a lot of love letter from the polis..or in chinese they call it "ngau yok kon" which means bacon or cow meat..i think ahaha...
since no pic so i use colour to make the blog interesting...
champagne is really nice..i love it...totally..
i hope today is still saturday..
but its sunday..

hajimema shite ♥ღ

hmmm these day pretty busy lor...hmwork hmwork hmwork gaigai gaigai gaigai and of cuz zzz zzz zzz haha...as happy as ever...err no reason...err wanna say thanks to my dear friendz and family...haha..i list down some ppl who stay connect wit me (these day)...

school-school friend..the most shoo yuen who sit nex to me and very very very extremely nice...true de extremely true...and a soik yin..so sook(which means pretty or sumthing in cantonese) and at last but not least shu wen(its her birthday at 1-7-08 happy belated birthday to shu wen ^^) and pei yin..
phone/sms-shu wen,soik yin,sim xie,shoo yuen..wonder why all "s" at the last name...
msn-my 2nd sis,hui ying,shoo yuen,soik yin and others(nt so rapat and rarely chat)..
friendster-pei yin,hui ying and others(nt so rapat rarely chat)..
home-of cuz my family..who else..
heaven-GOD..
hell-my bad side..

yeah so who is the most connect to me all the time(in school)??the answer is shoo yuen who are the most cute and pretty girl..all malay guys in my class is teasing her except for malak,arman and afiq which are nice malay guys(they rarey kacau ppl,if they do its just a little)..but they bully geng are the saifuddin geng lor..

they are terrible...so noisy...and then there is a malay guy i hate the most..i also duno why these guys is science class..that malay guy is 4sc1 named faidhi(i think correct)..he is like nothing to do..his class is in 4sc1 but always come to 4sc2 and make 4sc2 pasar pagi...kurang ajar u know??...

eveytime he is there i juz anggap he is transparent...such a monkey..oh no monkey is too cute for him..it should be chimpanze ba??arg...

my fav is shoo yuen hehe as fren la of cuz...
so tired...