no one is pefect ｡◕‿◕｡

well ... just gonna rant about ex again xD

hmmm ... lemme see . i'm just looking for someone who is brave , gentle , romantic and pampers me . xDD is that so perfect ? LOL .

first ex - gentle but not romantic ...
second - unknown . romantic maybe but violent .
3rd - gentle , cute but kinda ... null . = =
4rd - romantic , gentle , pampers me BUT playboy , cheater and girlish .
5th - romantic , gentle , cute , pampers me and brave BUT a dangerous playboy and cheater .
6th - romantic , gentle , cute but coward and like to pout like girls = = .
7th - romantic , gentle , cute but coward .
8th - unknown . cute .
9th - mysterious . brave .
10th - gentle , cute , romantic but dangerous playboy .
11th - romantic , gentle , brave ... but is just lacking of something > < .
etc[forgot xD ] .

*sigh ~ well have a great day ~ ｡◕‿◕｡

from the last post until 30/10/2010 .

hmm lately ... is messing a bit . exam still going on , my last subject is on next monday , thats Pengajian Perniagaan K2 . felt like typing all the things had been on my mind lately but forgot D:

2 until 3/11/10 going to johor and s'apore . 4th will be at s'apore for about 8hours . 5th/11/10 will be back :D and 2nd sis is having wedding-ceremony-tea or whatever its called .

so ... my question is .. .what is friend ? why am i always the one being ignored ? what does i love you mean ? oh ... i had been typing with lots of space lately . and more formal with a "."

when i put a fullstop , it means i dont want to talk to you [before] but i realize its neat :D and if i said bye to you means i dont really care about you [ except for classmates ] of course i had said bye bye to my classmate xD

i had friends . "i love you" is repeating a lot . until now ... it doesn mean anything anymore . guys said "i love you" and then after they get her , he's busy . poor girl ... she is not a doll Dx

i'll open my eyes AFTER i'm 18 :D well .. before that , hurt me as much as you want :D

jya ~ thats all ~ regards , good day ~♥~

my love history ^^

hmm i think by stating all out here will make me more happy . bcoz i wanna forget it all . but if i want to rmb it . i can just read this to refresh . XD

umm .. wont tell history bout other things . just some characteristic of my beloved's ex's . XD i love and i cant hate . its torturing hating .

the first one .. standard 5 .^^ i think dont need to state name gua ?! aiya... but will forget later leh ... alrite .. his name Sam xD umm .. his relationship with me is the most complicated .

how shud i put it ? umm .. its like , standard 5 and 6 we are couple but then form 1&2 we lost contact . form 3&4 couple back . form 5 break . form 6 couple back . and in the middle of this year ... break . XD

lets see .. he was a nice guy . he was out-date the moment i met him, [frankly ok ? TT__TT hope he dont read this ler ] but then when chatting with him form 5 he was so matured and improved so muchhhh! i was like ... omg ?!

haha .. his personality that i like ... he was caring . always calling me and sms-ing me . sending me credits . well i always send back thou ... i hate owe-ing people [bad experience when i'm standard3] .

personality i dislike . he was like old man . bla bla bla . xD sometimes we dont even had a topic to chat ?!

confession : giving letter when going back from tuition class . and presents sometimes . little surprise ^^ unknown duration .same age .

but we are still friends now . i think ? XD

alright . next . oh ... this one . form 1 . his name ....... Adrian . haha. this one is easy to forget . frankly ... XD

confession : giving letter on the way we're walking back .

unforgetable moment : yelled out "i love you ah ~! " on the staircase with loads of peoples . half a year .same age .

oh .. when i said he was the easiest to forget bcoz ... we never had anything to do . rarely talk . just sms ! i'm serious . XD well ... i had a stupid habits . i hate rejecting people XD

third one .. unknown .

fourth . unknown .

fifth . this was a bit special . XD Kevin . omg.. i'm serious . he was younger than me . XD 1995 . which means 3 years younger than me .

he was cute . but always busy TT____TT the reason why i break up with him .

confession : face to face : i love you . which shock me .

rare memories . just some blank promises . 2 months .

sixth . unknown .

seventh . Mike . umm ... he is also caring and nice . but sometimes he is extremely busy . he cheated once . but then we're back together . a cat lover . very girly . = =" i cant stand that . i felt like lesbian .

his line "when u're scared , i'll ease ur mind" . althou i know thats a blank promise too . but its so sweet .

confession : unknown . XD

memories : too much . XD of 6 months .

personality - quite a pervert too XD 20 years old .

eigth .dont wanna tell .

ninth one . forgot completely = ="

tenth . Zuriel . which also given me a new name . kyriel . XD he is the sweetest among all above . but also the sly-est . sometimes even idk if he's for real or not .

"i love you" at least 5 times a day , was what he always told me . sms and phone calls everyday . but my jealousy went over . we break bcoz my jealousy is too high and his pride is high . TT_____TT

personality : sweet . caring . stubborn . sly . pervert .

confession : always hanging around . and direct confession .

memories : too much ! x3 . of 1 and a half months . same age .


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and then ?

food! XD

Today 30-08 talks bout food wit vivian and debbie .woooh..that time almost 12.30pm.
hungry like hell xD stomach already drumming.today nt even a second to emo.
the best day this month xD
My top 10 food that i want nw.
Pudding.
Honeydew[juice] or bubbletea.
Ikura.
Onigiri.
Miso soup.
Ice blended mocha/choco expresso.
Cuppucino.
Mushroom soup.
Roti canai.
Kuih[idk what its called xD]
Dim sum.
Lo mai kai. xD
And more more sweet food xD

my point of view .

Elders always think their exp is 100% righteous.nt even bother to give nwadays teenagers a FREAKING chance to explain or change.bcoz they always think 'a sinner is forever a sinner' they dont give the chance for them to change coz they're afraid to take the risk .

and they think all teenagers are the same as those rotten society rubbish.did they ever think the pressure from them is one of the cause?come on la..what century is this?

just becoz of one rubbish in society , everyone is rubbish?i stand in the point of view of the elders..yes its true .'prevention is better than cure' but please be clear that prevention is nt meant to force,putting pressure or to control them.maybe they cn just give them advices.

if it doesn work.do it slowly or to find someone expert in teenagers problems and understand the reasons behind their deeds.if u dont even have the patience or felt the responbilities then dont even care to have sex and child.once they're born , parents takes full responbilities on them!

random blogggggggy X3

well well ...

first of all .. how about talking about me ? XD emo-ing daily.. falls asleep when i'm not supposed to xD

my english had been up up up recently.. influenced by someone.. felt proud .. XD kidding..

umm guys are so bastard likey ? XD firstly then would tried to have you . later when they get you , they'll try to dump u ..

aiya forgot what i'm about to tell .. .-. geeeeeee... fine~ just gonna spill out everything on this blog again later~ if i rmb~ =D

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no title as usual ler...xD
err.. this diary is actually for me to rant.
xp
errr.. woot a long time since i last update hor ?

ok to the point..
so start off with *cough cough ... he always said give him a chance... now he gave up so .. i still owe him one .. and i think i paid it just now . yep .its not like i hate him or something... just that ..he is too good xD i truly wish him happiness (^^,)

second off .. =) someone ... who always said "love" without meaning it.someone who always rant to me . someone whose jealousy is very HIGH . yes so damn f-ing high ! when i'm with a guy he would get jealous but FYI my jealousy level is darn xxxx f-ing high too .when he is with another girl , its called "GENTLEMAN" WTF dude ?!

dont make me laugh ... he think i dont know that .. i'm a good stalker xp
he is a liar , someone with high jealousy , and many more. that make us even . but its he did it first and i just PAY BACK . its called SELF PROTECT . okay ?

and i can count everything about him . althou he is good to me.. but that is what everyone can be to me.

negative points .
he loved cat.. oh come on ! that makes me felt like lesbian ..
obsessive with new stuff.. i cant help u on that u know ?!
he called me out / chat to me when he is bored. darn .. i'm not a f-ing-shitty
-doll for u to play with !
and etc .. zzz!
thats all .

*yawn ...
doing PP hmwork .. will sleep later after some game ^^ nite nite~

oh one more..sorry for the foul language i used... i'm in a very shitty mood ! TC~