damn..

haha moral folio haven finish..damn it i hate doin moral folio..i curse the one who create this idea to do folio WITH PICTURE to die(if he/she is..i wish he/she never reborn..if already reborn then i curse him/her to be sad FOREVER)..

i dont care doin folio but the picture was damn..u see its not like i can find anyone to take for me..if i am like my fren got a mother who was willing to help or little siblings..i am the youngest among my family relative?i think so...duno la..

talk about relative..i hate one of my father sibling..his whole family(his wife and daughter too..his son is still okay..because i rarely talk to him..or shud i say i NEVER talk to his son before??)

yeah i hate his whole family..he is a cheapskate,arrogant,like s hole and his wife is like s hole too and his wife is even a bitch..

lets see..if one of his family die i would wish to my father that "i DONT wan to visit them or go to their funeral"

so geram ah..just now he came to do some business(and he done something cheapskate before ==) i dont want to be rude so i called him "uncle" and he din respond!!go die la!!even the teacher in skul answer by a nod(really??!!no its not..dah nama chuan teacher mana ada angguk punya..just some teacher la)

hey use brain and think this..i called u "uncle" is not because i scare u..its because i respect my father,i dont wan ppl say my father no teach me manners and i respect him as my uncle..

damn it i will NEVER call him again..i will call him FXXXer if u wan..

okay stop this talk bout teacher..damn..u see one of my wish is also to be teacher..the job i hate the most is police..not because i scared to die but for some reason they really does irritated me..annoying!!

teachers..i dont like teachers too..but i wan to be one because..i know i can be a better teacher than mine now!!

talk bout future..lately my father said "kah yan..u better learnt business before u work 4 me"..umm i have think about it..erm..u see if i study business then i can be a part time and learnt piano at the same time??i even think about this..

morning:business classes

evening:part time job

night:piano lesson

hmmm...how dreamy...this all are my wish..but i'm always an unlucky child so God will never give me such perfect life..go dream bah..

haha talk bout my father..hmmm i think all parents really does understand their child huh??but not completely though..ummm u see dat day(i think last thursday..when got that damn pameran thing in my skul..and i hate my fren) so i just silent myself..

on the same time that day my fahter same late..then when reach home i kept myself in my room and then slept..until night..my fahter ask "dont wan eat ar??" i said "dont wan..."..actually really dont wan eat la..no mood..

then my father thought i merajuk becoz he came late to pick me up today..haha but then tmr(Labour day?yeah i think so well its friday)..i woke up and felt really sick..and then go eat (still silent with some cough)

then my father asked "what happen yesterday??teacher scold?(no way i am not a bad student..*grin* haha mayb some la..i am kinda rebellious)fight with fren??"(haha i have NEVER think he can get it right..not fight just argument..

i am a kid who get mad at a lot of thing la..==

then he said "if got anything happen say la!if u silent up how i shud know o??" haha so nice..

then talk about yesterday i saw him again and again..hey now dat i know u see from form 2 i din see him much..but this year i saw him TOO much??haha..yeah yesterday no class also saw him..what i meant by no class is after skul..

sob after skul my fren left me T.T but nvm la..i duno she left so i search for her..then on the way back i saw him from second floor(pejabat there to the dataran there)

and he is like moving his hand(means bye) so i also move my hand(we din even talk for years..3 years?yep around..)

haiz..its annoying but i wont try to forget him..now that i know if i try to forget him i love him more and i try to search for him everyday ==

and i even tried to avoid him everywhere and each time i saw him..when he move his hand for a "hello" to me when we meet i just reply him..its rude and arrogant not to respond..i am not a noble or a genius so i cant have those arrogant side..

erm usually thrusday i will saw him on the was back from chemi lab coz his class(5p2 is there) haiz..then i would saw him too when i go bio or physic lab..and even my class this year is the opposite to his..

i like hangging around corridor when teacher is not in class or i'm boring..that time i might saw him and if i saw him i try to avoid and TERPAKSA sit quietly and be gud girl in class..becoz no mood to stand around the corridor jor..

i love the corridor breeze..it felt good..

hmmm what a long blog ^^

didi dada...$%^&*&^%$%^&*

arg damn...too bu shuang..

hump..do u ever felt of betrayED??yes yes i hate dat feeling but its i'm USED to it and familiar with it..

geez...just last thursday that damn skul(i hate my skul..damn hate)..yeah dat damn skul has a pameran for the high skul thinggy..i hate it..

damn all student are going there to take the bullXXXX-free-bag.. ==

arg..the more i talk bout this the more i'm angry..what i am angry is not this bullshit..its dat my rubbish(friend??) just go crazy herself..

yes!i pick rubbish as my best fren(worst than that?exactly.. =) )

and then last week(or mayb last two week) go visit my standard 1 skul(sk batu 14??i think so)..yeah so happy..the memories..and dat skul din change much inside just they rebuild the fence thinggy and change the paint but inside the tapak perhimpunan was still the same..

ahhh so happy..then i get to see a room inside there(i just peek from outside the fence-the one you could not see inside one...while my father buy yong tau foo there ^^)

oh ya dat room..then i think what room is dat??oh ya i think its the bilik kesihatan..coz dat time is the most scariest "suntikan" time T.T

yep i still remember how we all need to take off the white shirt only(??? izit real??i duno kinda dreamy..==)

haha..so sweet then i get an image of my class in the far far far back room..haiz..cannot see clearly just can agak agak see lor..

then suddenly a friend from dat skul appear..and it remind me of a friend of mine when i was form 1..he is nice but kinda gangster..so what??i am in 1 k after all..the third-last class ^^ (ones always mintak duit perlindungan xp not me mintak..me is mangsa buli T.T)

then ok last tuesday saw him straight face-to-face..luek..the feeling was awkward U.U

after him is him..the he call "wei" or "ei" so i look back(stupid me) then he smile..and i smile back(more stupid me XD)

when i am stress then i fall sick..arg sick..ummm..i usually love her but now she change to someone who annoys me..so i hate her!

and this is one more bitch..i wanna damn her and crush this bitch..she is damn annoying.. :@

she is making me no mood to talk to guys..u see when i do they will say "yer she love him er.." damn u bitch la..i just talk to him its not like i do that to him..bodoh bitch!!

arg dats all..haiz actually want to post earlier de but everytime also felt malas and doing other thing..so thats all..felt very good after saying all this ^^

and i decided to forgive the rubbish..i wont talk to her but just ignore her..