.........always the same title

bored....bored these day loitering loitering and so on...feel muc stress but something change..my relation with bla bla bla...but then there is one more thing that keeps bugging me...i need to say i but i duno how to start it so i giv him a chance to say it..


okay fine he is blur and....i am gonna say it..."lets break up"??sound lame..."i dun like u anymore"??sound hurt..."be my brother"??sound childish..."errr errr l...ee....tssss brrrreeeak uppppp"??sound stupid..."break up"??sound blur...."go to hell"??thats not it..."good bye"??sound okay.."lets be fren back"??hmmm sound a little hurt...


arhhhhhhhh!!!!!crazy how can i say it?okay fine...how bout "be my brother"??thats more human like huh??...okay fine today i will say it..i promise coz that day i ask him this question(again)..."what is ur reaction if we break up??" he answer me "nvm for me can be wit u oledy very happy although if we break up i will still treat u as my sis i just wan to giv u a happy life if u happy then i will be happy too" and i answer "thx a lot"..


from that time i feel.....(duno how to express it in word)...i will remember today is the day which i break with him...i know that someday i will regret but if u keeps on going like this in the middle of the heaven and hell i will fall and black out to hell...maybe i will tell him tonight..someday in the future if he open internet and read this i hope he will understand..i want to say "good bye" to him forever...


i am a girl that wont satisfied if i don own the thing i like..now that i own everything i like..example??hmmm lets see first its my laptop then its handphone then mp4 and so on..(show off a bit la xp)..smiling to him make me feel.....weird....(duno how to express it)


somewhere in my heart now i am feeling happy and sad...happy is that my relationship going 5050 and sad is come form stress...tomolo i think got ambil gambar for class picture..


then got a lot activity like moping the floor for teacher at every saturday(i forget when jor)got mark o..then is the qm activity stay back for kehadiran form around 3:30 to 6:40 huh?u think i dun need do anything?do as u wish?what the...


omg...feel like want to black out my mind and start a new life by??reborn...oh ya since i am in form 4 then got a few new student is kind,pretty,good and cute too..they are famous in although they are new maybe because her brother known by everyone...


hmmmm so............kagum not jealous la..well got a bit xp..new student sure are great...i miss my kindergarden,primary skul,secondary skul(form 1,2,3) fren and teacher very muc..they teach me a lot of thing like study and of cuz include ahem ahem...


the first fren i meet in kindergarden was....ahem ahem sorry low memory...and thats same as my primary but still i like someone a malay guy which is so cute maybe just because of that so that since then my sis always call me by his name and also a chinese guy haha i am a play girl..


but then it change from fren to enemy when we have an argue that he did it!!(a chinese guy)he is my first enemy in secondary skul..and second chinese guy which are also my enemy are him!!and so on...i sure make a lot of guys enemy..well they are unreasonable,hot tempered...thats the same as me xp...


my first fren in secondary name hmmm lets see shu wen(she is the first i met in secondary skul,i think,we always fight for small matter and then be fren back and so on xp),yin ger(wah this is the one thats great in my life she is a great helper and same as fui yen),fui yen(nice,cute,good,pretty and so on)..


kevin (my FIRST,dulu,opinion is that he is kind,gangster like,nice to fren and cute ^^)adrian(thats dulu now he is a totally stranger for me,well can say),joon sean(hmmm this one lets see he is some kind cool,gangster haha this is only my opinion for dulu),kang jiun(this is my fren when we are in form 1 only,now hmmm duno how to say complicated),yie tian(good) and so on but some i dun really rapat with..


and then go to my form 2 and 3 some still remain with me and some get really high (i mean they clever and get to the top class)wahhh...fine then form 3 i was again same class as him..we never talk,never see each other even we are in the same class..he equal to my nightmare..okay fine...


but now its much like hell than nightmare coz my result totally impossible!!fuhh so tired after typing all this..wargh...feel??tired,bored,nonsense anything else??hmm feel relieve after typing this all making this a memory then sometimes i will read it back and i udn need to keep this memory in my mind..make it a history when i grow up..chak cya,tk cr ^^