its hurt me a lot...........

today.................i view 1 fren friendster........then i find out that my.......(duno wat that relationship call) HE drop a comment to HER.....it remind me 3 year ago(i am in form 1) that tym i start to fight(err the fight din use punch or sumthing its juz misunderstand)......i know it was all my fault that he cud hav this misunderstand so then i apologize to him n he said "sorry 4 wat,u din do anything wrong"..........then i tot its fine but i am too naive to believe that......NAIVE!!!!!!!!!!!STUPID!!!!!!!IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!BAKA!!!!!!!!!!MORON!!!!!!!!!everything............y do i believe that.......

after i call him that day.......nex day i go to skul then i c him but he juz walk away lyk i NEVER exist in this world(transparent)........what the hell????he said its nothing but then y???y???juz tell me y???i reli angry that tym(n fill with other feeling too lyk sad,curious n other).........i bear this feeling for 3 YEARS already.........its hurt,its hurt me a lot so that from now on i promise not to b such childish,jelousy,unmature,stupid,nonsense n other......I'LL get rid of it.......i cant stand this feeling in skul anymore,i don want to bear this feeling anymore.........i cant ctand it....its hurt.............to b ignore lyk that,hurt hurt reli hurt.............i cry a lot (the river of tears) but no one noe..............i know that apologize cudn help,but at least tell me what u angry at????tell me???..........y???y???y i nid to suffer from this........i promise nex year i WONT hurt any1 bcoz if i do,i juz hurting myself.......i don want it to hepen again.........T.T

my GOD with all the goodness y???tell me y i am suffering from all this???n tell me how to make it right????please help me.......i CANT stand it anymore~~~~.............please........onegai.......sumtimes i try to calm myself down/closed my eyes n try to think what did i do until i nid to suffer 4 that???did i kill sumone???did i burn someone house???did i???!!!!!!!!did i???!!!!!!!!!!!!!............no one cud understand my feeling except myself..........y...................tell me y????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................................

reli make me suffer n SUMTIMES when i see him or even heard about him,i juz feel like wanna giv up n then go to hell..........my heart juz feel like this vase above,easily broken.............there is still a long journey/path 4 me(thats juz if i still alive)............long long journey to the north.....