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see i say oledy hepiness cudn last 4eva....1 day hepi,100 day sad.....sumtym i think does WE hav blood relationship or even i am the mistress daughter??.....think of these thing making me confuse n wanna explode....my brain keep thinking of it lyk "izit x can replace y??".....n i EVEN hav the envy (.....that feeling duno how to say) feeling with my fren they got a nice family that din fight everyday....why???at least tell me why this all hepen to me???past life sins???.........y i nid to suffer from all this.....n at least tell me how long i nid to suffer???

n summore that i reli stress to hav sum1 in my family get the great score then i nid to follow that path n take the good result.....i reli stress from all this.....my fren always said "good la u,great la u"....then i answer "tell me wat so good n wat so great???"....then she said "aiyo great score ma then u SHUD b hepi n glad la"......SHUD b GLAD???wat r u talking about how bout u feel it???i reli going tired n lack of energy 4 all this....i feel BORING with this life n the river of tears....it cant help at all....

sumtym it make me reli angry to say back the PAST.....the negatif past....n i duno y??y they all lyk to bring back the negatif past???n they din bring the positif 1 why??why???........i think at 1 year there will b a rule saying that "1 family 1 child" hmmm this rule got its own positif n negatif

positif-there will b no fight between sibling......

negatif-if the parent giv TOO MUC luv the child then it'll b worse (u noe la some child is the only child with the arrogant attitude but not all la).......

hmmm how nice IF that rule exist....