enjoy........

well cum to think of the enjoy part.........do u reli enjoying reading this???or do u enjoying ur life???well 4 me i think i am enjoying to b in this family but................but.........i am not reli enjoying at skul bcoz it makes me feel skul guys are all weird weird de.......see b4 this blog its the love part n i mention that GUY in the skul that hurt me (mayb little xp)......does guy reli duno how to appreciate the thing that come easy n juz want the thing that is hard to get???(izit they juz want to show that they are strong wit it???well its wrong.......)........

know wat the reason we break up???(n we break up through sms u noe......how pathetic...)he say that "i think i cant bring hepiness to u bcoz even myself not hepi.....i dont want juz sms with u"(hmmm i don remember so muc bcoz i hav a low memory n i din care past or i din even care of it xp,but then he din say sumthing hurt me....i think this is better way to break up than he 'sindir' me b4 we break up......)(well we juz sms cuz i hav no tym to 'layan' him when we at skul coz he got too muc fren with him....)i always stay in the library during recess,so that not muc tym i hav(if u are closed to me then u shud noe wat i do after skul.......well i am good girl that always go back home whenever the class is over(juz kidding^^,not true de).........

well i think i don suit him muc bcoz of my childish attitude well u c i lyk to kidding n playing a LOT....u c,he din lyk study (i think) n my ideal guy is the one who smarter than me(so that he can teach me for my study xp)......we start at 2006 when holiday(i think,well i forgot the date),then we break up at may 2007(i think,err mayb earlier than that xp)......so that whenever i see him i try to run away or something like that,so that my fren asked me "woi,why are u trying to avoid him???do u still love him or wat??"............wah thats question making me @.@(dizzy or somthing wrong)...then come to think of it,that question make sense......i ask myself a lot "y do i still nid to avoid him or running from him???" *haiz*.......
what a stupid i am........so that i realize i cant avoid from him 4ever rite???so that i am still gonna met him 2008 n 2009 rite (hmmm if i still alive or still at that skul xp)........ok hav a deal i am not gonna AVOID from him again....well avoiding from din make any change n it make me hurt as well.....wakaka sumthing reli funny u noe,whenever i c him i got a feel lyk want to punch or hit him till i satisfied (i reli want to but he always with a geng of guy)..*fuh*..exam still got a long way 4 me,so i am not gonna giv up that easily....well i din lyk guy(not means i am lesbian o n_n")..uhhhh these day know wat????i fall in love with...with..sumTHING worth..its..the BOOK..well book wont hurt u or make u sad can they???..book are a great weapon/key to the success..

ppl say "the more u hate=the more u love" n "when i hit u means i love u"..........*sigh*.......what the hell is this????sumkind lyk opposite???well we CANT see/predict future (except u hav a magic power or sumkind lyk that or else u wont see it ^^) but we CAN choose the path n b respondsible 4 what u hav done (uhhhhh.....thats what i call mature xp).....n_nv





*chi* it make me scare/irritate(or sumkind lyk feel sumthing wrong),all the ppl say that "wei u love him ar bcoz u hate him ma" wah sai this is ridiculous.........it NEVER gonna happen,fuh that make me change i wont hate my fren sumore....I'LL make it equally(no hate n no love 4 my fren....juz frenship n thats all......).........n_n"............honestly i DID lyk sumone(juz i lyk him but he din lyk me) but now i decided to forget him (fren only lor) n keep on study 4 my future......





know why i always smile (i even cry) its bcoz i wan cheer my family n frenz up sumtime it work (with my stupid joke) but then sumtime it fail........mayb i now i got sadness more than hepiness come from my family but i hope it will change when i grow up.......please i beg u my GOD....i beg u from the botom of my heart.....i CANT stand it anymore........i juz CANT...........i always hold a prinsip "even though its hard n hurt i dont want to lose hope"(but sometimes when i feel reli sad n depress then mayb o will lose my hope).....i find 2 song that hav some meaning in it.....

-......-(well i forgot the tittle......pathetic-_-")



I juz cant go on anymore with these feeling i hav now,

its a labyrinth with no way out that i keep on wandering 'round,

but even if there's a way out from this darkness,

i'm gonna tear it down!

There really are no easy victories in this world,

if fate turns against u,

you have to stand there and take in,

not to avoid it,

there are times when i'm a coward n i juz want to cry out loud,

but even though it may b hard n hurt,

i don't want to lose hope.....

Bcoz i want to always b the one laughing in the end...........

-End-(err this song i have add someting xp)





-curious play opening song-(uhhh i remember.....)



Soar high,suzaku.Miracle la,

the legend begins to unfold,

and the real me inside unfurls.

The distant echo of "i love u" leads me to u.

My awakening soul shines in this other world.

Oh,what can i do now for the one i love?

There are no dreams that can't come true.

i believe in what lies ahead,

becoz i believe that love......

will save us every time.......

Open urself to eternity.

To our mysterious play.

-End-

u cant understand one's feeling bcoz u r not him/her.....u cant even know what he/she want......sometimes i dream (i always dream/day-dreaming from day to night in my wonderland n waitng 4 a miracle to happen n_n......*haiz*.......pathetic.....)to hav a MAGIC that cud see what human reli want n i'll try to do it (if i can)......i'll try to keep them hepi and always keep their smile in my heart....




uuuuuh long long blog reli sick of it -_-"

well thankz 4 reading this.........