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hahax..these days..here are the question i answered and then question i asked..first ppl like to ask me ponteng ar?..hahax its not like a rare thing..

and second is when i go LAWAT doctor..*evil grin*

result..

eat this..==..that red bottle scared me..red=danger/blood..oh yeah the two tablets on left is small but the one on right is so big nia~~ TT but nvm i had taken more big one before..

my fren once asked me "ei u are tau fu ar?" ~~~ haix..see ah..hmm the black bottle is for cough then the yellow pil for flu and kahak then surat cuti(^^) then fever pil and lastly the red bottle..duno what izit..just drink it XD mati lebih cepat la..

on the red bottle just wroted 1 cup 3 times ==

then i ask doctor lor..why no gimme antibiotic?know what is the answer?.."u took too much" what the..but if i look back i really did..i took a lot kind of antibiotic and MANY TIMES of those pils..

i had already biasa with taking pils..basic pils like flu,cough,headache,fever and etc..ei the above pils..when i think of it..why izit like h1n1 symtoms de?==

haiz..so malang la!!!!!!!!!

there are 3 thing disamping i wanted to say thats

• if u dont like answering question then u also not supposed to ask question!!
• STOP telling me RUBBISH,i DONT need it..i only TRUST wat i SAW by my own eyes..
• and lastly if u would like to gossip other ppl..then look in the mirror first or shud i lent u one if u are so poor?..look at ur shit face before u started gossip bout other ppl..

even if u are pretty/beautiful u are not SUPPOSED to gossip or talk bad about other ppl!!they are none of ur *beep*ing business..

even if u are a beauty if u owned a black heart what does ur face means?for u to became a whore?oh yeah..ur *beep* face makes me wanna puke/vomit..i dont like ur act..

Past..

i am phobia of many thing..i am scared..i had a lot of fear..fear to/of:

• look
• explain
• hear
• understand
• touch
• experience
• being included
• look behind
• love
• being love
• hate
• being hated
• being jealous
• being greedy
• make friends
• pain
• fear of school
• being look down
• being betrayed
• being hurt
• remembering my past
• hurting ppl
• making ppl in pain

and many more....i had too much to fear..its because of him dat i felt myself step over this all pain and fear..but now its over..i dont know how long can i stand straight coz its over..last saturday i found a ring that he gave me..i cried but i felt happy in the same time..

this ring i wanted to find it a long time but always say "later" when we are still together but now its over and this ring......i will kept it..as a memory of my pain..now this all pain and fear step over me..i dont know what to do..

i am sorry..now that i realize i liked him too much..he is caring..and sometimes i felt he was annoying thou..now i know that i liked him..i will........kept on being "saudara angkat" with him..

i had a habits of liking old things...to those old thing i wont forget(70% pain memories)..i cried everyday for now..i.....i dont wish to look back..i wish to look forward..today is another bad day but i am glad..because eveytime i had fun then...i also meant i will suffer many days..

i will treasure the ring..this ring now stand for our in-law-ship(saudara angkat)..everything in the past i hoped he forget it..because the past me was terrible than how terrible i am now..i will also start to forget about old memories..

my memory card was not very big so if u ask me yesterday's stuff i can still answer you but if u ask me something like over a month ago mayb i cant answer u..these day i saw him in skul(another one) i turn away from him and walk a different path so that i wont see him face-to-face..

we agree on being friends but it still hurt..its hurting me inside because i dont know whether he is sincerely being my friend or he is just making fun of me..i am scared..because of the past i dont dare to look forward and i got phobia against some guys..

now shud i clean all the memories and used a new one?although it wont be 100% clean..it will take a very very very long time to forget sad memory..

zzzzz

aiya..these day damn bad luck..hmm i will start with the day i go "fun day"..well first of all i beh song walking in the storm(erm hiperbola?yeah)to get in ioi..then on waited for my friend's younger brother for around 30 minutes..==

haiz..then later encounter some 38(sampat) girl..felt damn terrible..then go home nia??~~of cuz go back ioi and walk around the jambatan to the other side ALONE(first time lor~~) zzz..then arrive the other side waited more than 30 minutes bcoz my father go buy dinner ==

aikzz..go back sleep..zzz

and next is last friday..u know i will remember these day forever(friday 10-7-09 and saturday)

know wat?i hate it so much !!now i will say bout friday..first of all worried about my sej,then kena cubit by my chemi teacher TT i cant help it wat..then later on got some more happens..

and when i came back from skul and nothing happen then at night i realized i left my sej long man at skul TT so how am i goin to do it?i end up calling my friend asking the essay question..it took me rm30+1 hour time+my energy..damn it..i learnt a lesson..

then i slept at more than 3am for friday because wan finish my sejarah essay TT..first time so late nia~~~my latest wake up time was 4pm..== hahax that day chat about this..erm i skip my supper+breakfast+lunch replaced with dinner == more menjimatkan XD

erm then saturday..one-day-maid-service-without-paid == hahax..i had fun with my friend..ummm..there was one thing i was angry on lor..i planned on getting my book for the struktur question but the i encounter..

first two teacher..pn asadah(duno la) and pn norjah..so i asked for the key to form 5 gate..they said in office and bla bla bla..kesian hui ying XD i asked her to accompany me..

then arrive at pejabat..incredibly silent..see lala playing computer == this is what i hate now..u see when i talk with her with full manner,she answer what u know?..damn her..she said "u are not SUPPOSED to be here and u are NOT SUPPOSED to go up too" go die!she said in a very high tone and like sindiran..

the no mood but then when come back from skul go eat sushi..so nvm la..sushi good good~~

aiks then got more forgot jor..becoz just now do the 100 truths on facebook and then make card for my daddy's bday ^^

well i do think all this is because i had too much fun the day before TT

news!!

120,000 picked for next NS

• BIDOR: Some 120,000 youths born in 1992 have been randomly chosen to take part in next year’s national service camp.
• National Service Training Depart-ment director-general Datuk Abdul Hadi Awang Kechil said they were chosen from a pool of 500,000 youths.
• “They can start checking their status at 11am today,” he said yesterday after opening a national service training at the Nilam Ehsan Camp here.
• To check using SMS, type “PLKN (space) SEMAK (space) identity card number” and send to 15888. Each SMS costs 20sen.
• Further details can be obtained at www.mysms.gov.my. Alternatively, one’s status can be checked at www.khidmatnegara.gov.my.
• “The list of names have been uploaded,” said Hadi.
  
• http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/7/1/nation/4230035&sec=nation
  

copy from today's The Star..www.thestar.com.my

wah yesterday i checked already but some human say it might be lied so today after see this news go check again and the result was stil the same..

lol my fren said "kena toto also not that tepat ah!!" lol..i dont know why ppl are so over the death of MJ..== i am not his fans so i had no feeling

its annoying seeing ppl take about him everywhere..friendster,facebook,msn,my space,blog and everywhere ==

now my fren had stop talk about it and start with the NS thinggy..

quick quick if u are 92---- go check it now.. using sms type PLKN(space)SEMAK(space)(ic number) send to 15888