Beloved.

as titled.this post is about my beloved larrrr.hehex.

i liked?loved? you.but i can never make it.i just wish u lived happily for u are so kind.i also duno why i loved u so much.i gave up owning u.bcoz its just IMPOSSIBLE.

haha.just wish u was my friend (until i die) . that will be more than enuf.looking at ur cheerful smile makes me skip a beat.

thank you for being my friend.if we lost contact someday.that day will be more terrible than world end to me. TT loves you.as a friend.wish u would stay by my side.that will be the greatest gift for my bday+christmas. =3

^^

no more title to write.felt happy~for some reason.

oh ya did mention that kok san san from the time i go listen undang resembles my beloved a lots? =)

my beloved.friends kept on asking me to go go go.but there are also some asking me to let go if it hurts that much.

my conscience told me never to let go unless i really reachED hell.now i like her more and more.like and love was diff.i also duno why i like her so much.her personality?looks?actions?studies?

haha i had no idea.she is someone willing to help without asking for paybacks.soon i will be like u dear. =)

so dear to me.last year...i get 2 bday cake due to some reason.first cake on 23-12-08 when celebrating at times square.first time going out with frens.felt great.

second cake.cell group activity.that one...err...*speechless*

this year if i count it it will be .first cake is on 15-12-09.with friends.second WILL BE on 23-12-09 that i think will be a bday+christmas cake. ><>

tomorrow the actual plan is going genting highland.....cancelled that due to my undang test is on the same day.haha.but later cancelled undang test too,reason is...too lazy la.gimme a break already.bday also need go take exam?lol.

then last option.go celebrate bday with 2 others frens is the best of best choice!! =3

last year there are 6 of us(me included).this year 3 of us. TT . kinda dissapointed.cake increasing.friend decreasing?? ==ll

oh ya the third cake was from daddy.he asked that day "what cake u wanted?" .emm. cake...what i really wan is can u borrow me ur car? lol. dream laaaaaaa.

that will be the third cake.WILL BE=not yet. =3

looking forward to tomorrow~~xixi~

what to do?what to do?just now play uno.people add my cards when i felt guilty of adding theirs.haiz.life is like that de.

u be good others 20% will be good to u.i planned on being a good girl de but now...seems like i need to act before other ppl act eh? =) i dont wan to be the one being hurt anymore!!whatever it takes.

i dont wan to be the naive me who think if i be a good girl everyone will be good to me too.hmph anyone think like that is not other than the NAIVE group. =) i hate that idiots feeling.

this gotta be a long long post. =3

alright.this is a post about what happened yesterday+today. =)

yesterday woke up at 6.30am(late.actually need to woke at 6am).then prepare and zoom~7am arrived at the driving centre.damn nervous.then went in "sri antara's driving license" that uncle there damn scary.plus the atmosphere then hor silent,cold,gloomy..... ==

my father ask "is mr.choong here ar?" he said "yeah.take license here la!here got jpj sign there cetak rompak punya!!" ==ll.damn u.ask oni no nid use high tone.then went eat nearby @@.i thought we went in the right one then i realize rupa rupa nya itu cetak rompak's title is "mr.choong driving centre" ==ll

what the...that "cetak rompak" is not really the problem.just a nickname xD.well that "cetak rompak" is better MANNER that the one got jpj sign de ==ll.

leng chai summore xD.no la.then when we went in,there is 3 chinese boy,1 indian boy and 1 chinese girl sitting there dy~ahh chinese girl i thought i shud go make fren with her but very nervous plus she looks arrogant ==.then forget about it la ><.

wait for the boss!then went in the car(unser).there is a foreigner there. O.O . haha.then at the last row i sat in the middle. == why me?.like hot dog.ahhh.then one sit one my left is that chinese girl.sit in the middle row is all chinese boys.sit in the row with the driver is indian boy. o.o so syiok o~

then on the way.snore snore~ == the chinese girl beside me just fall asleep.what the?can u really sleep just like that?...i cant >< . sleep on me pulak tuh. ==

the atmostphere in the car = silent! scary la weh.talk something la TT.arrive at nilai.driver:take out ur IC~~then on the way go inside a.k.a in the middle of the road.we heard "negaraku" that chinese and indian boys stand up straight in front of me ==.

then that foreigner also stand up straight beside me (i wonder if she know whats that ==). one more chinese boy stand behind me.that chinese girl already went in.i wonder if she had failed and come take again or she had pass and come listen again bcoz the driver said to her like this "u went in first la.u know liao de hor?... =) "

what the.we are not kids la. TT . heard lagu negaraku still need stand up straight in the middle of the road TT.so malu.then went pass the cafeteria.then stand up "so kang kang"(chinese idiom) in the middle of the registeration centre. ==ll.wait wait........

called out my name.yay~but they rob my rm5 for insurance ==.finally can enter class and listen liao =3

then sat down at an ISOLATED chair xD.know why i called it isolated?bcoz hor.err the class is long long one.xD i mean in the middle part there is 3 chair de.right side 2 chair and left side 1 chair ==. i mean like ... that whole row from up to down is 1 chair de.then in the middle whole row from up to down is 3 chair de.

then a bunch of pasar ppl talk talk talk. ==.the one sit just across me is a chinese girl.looks nice.wanted to say "hi" but malu and damn nervous.so forget it xD.

then the same car with me de guy named "yip kah meng" sat in front of my row of ISOLATED chairs xD i rmb well becoz we got the same middle name.i know it when the instruktor came in and he said "woah why so many ppl?i was told to teach 50 only" ==.i think in my heart "how the hell will i know? =="

ah before this we waited a long long time for him.while i study a bit about roundabout and the simpang 4. =3 it was fun analysing which car goes first and then which.then the instruktor came in.with his fierce face ==.damn scared.*shiver*

he was an indian.oh ya in the class all was form 5,form 4,other,an aunty and an old man.mostly form 5 after spm la.like i said just now he came in and shocked by so many ppl.some without chair de standing there.then he called out name~~and then he said "for those who i dont call names get out of my class!main masuk saja!isk budak sekarang nih"

hmph.and then finally settled down.and he said "hey u orang ah tak boleh duduk satu geng satu geng.saya nak tukar tempat.saya akan tukar tempat dari semasa ke semasa." err in that class got 2 pair of twins chinese boys.a pair cool and a pair cute.woah.lucky~ xD.

and then put me in the middle row and in the middle seat.left is a girl named kok san san (if correct spelling la.and that yip kah meng also duno correct spelling or not xD) .and then right is an indian girl named mega(something) forgot liao la~ xD.i know bcoz the instruktor told us to be fren with the one beside us.

then he said "u all gt the jpj text book ka?" ==ll. i forgot to bring mine.then go buy with san san~xD then hor kena rob rm6 again == nasib baik my father got gimme some money~ ><

and then when masuk class the instruktor stand there.again...with his fierce face.then he asked "oh u two are fren ar?" . we answered "errrr..." then we sat down then he said "owh u two sit togather ka?mana boleh macam itu..." ==ll.XXXX i reli felt damn beh song liao.

so i stand up with my rotten personality and sat down to a place he asked me to.hmph.whatever u ask.i need to face u 2 times only(or maybe once.after u pass P still need to listen once more.but duno if the same instruktor or not jeh.) cheh.change seat mai change lor.scare u ar?its not like i came with fren.

i sit where also alone de lah.blekkkkk~~ then he makes some jokes.like what is P?he asked every one.everyone answered "dont know".then he said "P is...an alphabet!!where did u all study ur tadika?what is P and what P stand for is diff!!" ==

what also u said larrr.==.then many more funny things.and about the road sign.there is a cow sign de.he asked us to take out a pen and change some information about that sign.he said "alright.bila anda lihat sign ini anda perlu perlahankan kenderaan kan?and then u tukar.........u tulis.......kira berapa ekor lembu di situ and then terbangkan seekor" xD .lol everyone laugh like hell.

lol we so serious take out pen and ready to write liao de leh. (or is it me only? lolx.)

and then he said "did u know 10 years ago around ...... got car accident and 28 out of 30 ppl died" then i think how would i care and how would i know when i am only 7? == . then he say to a student "okay awak ialah ketua polis saya ialah pemberita. ketua polis apakah ulasan anda tentang kes ini?"

the student dont know how to answer xD or is it shy?lol.then he said "aiyo dont know ka?apa pun duno.dari pagi tadi tanya apa pun dont know.apalah u orang.okay la u jadi pemberita tanya saya pasal ulasan itu.saya jadi ketua polis." then the student asked.and instruktor answered.

"masih dalam siasatan lar. aiyo itu pun tak tau ka?biasa kan selalu jawab macam itu.siasat siasat sampai 10 tahun satu habuk pun tarak" lol.this one i damn agree.

and then talk about study tiba tiba he said his experience about going korea,china and japan.this three only.aiya no nid u tell i also wan go those 3 country la. ==

he said there damn nice must go.then japan there punya road got vacuum de.but malaysian where do they put the vacuum?in their poket..... == he said what also damn nice one == he even asked us to try alcohol and drugs. #==

the more he said the more he saying malaysian sucks.malaysian this that.....haha but for some reason i 99.9% agree with him. xD

then skip skip skip....until 3pm.wooohooo class finished. xD once again.stand there "so kang kang" to take IC ==ll.then wait ppl gathered.

balik lorr.this time 6 guys and 2 girls ==.i sit infront~yay~i thought very syiok.but hor.....got a laptop there == and i dont wan sit on the laptop and dont wan be so rude to take the laptop to other place. ( i wonder if the indian sat there got that laptop there?==)

then i sit like that for an hours + my waist so damn pain man...erm lalu jusco and carrefour the driving asked "who wan go down from here?i no nid fetch one person xD" == so funny mea? ==.

then hor there is this one chinese boy.looks kinda cute.got introduce himself to me before his name i think is Jack. lol.he was like turn here turn there.until the flat there his voice of direction seems like going fullstop so i thought he lived there...so i din really look at him much.bcoz thats common de.

but it ended up hor...he lived in a damn big house ==.i turn at the back to look at his face *shocked* OMG!(the driver also look at me for a while xD damn malu.) err regretted not taking a picture there.i dont know that place existed.one day u must go and see.around that cheras perdana there.that taman name is taman putra (something) forgot liao leh.i think i will rmb his face for a while now. xD

that place is like mansion.woah.first time see de leh.i wanna take pic de but so malu~ xD . that place is what ppl called "cartoon/cinderella's house" .3 floor.damn big. not only a few there.but more than 30 houses like that i think.woah really nice~~i also wan house like that TT (absolutely dreaming =3)

and then fetch this fetch that.kah meng,an indian boy,a chinese boy and me balik serdang's driving centre there.lol.they all gone back liao.i waited alone for my daddy. TT.

sit there i think of a lots of things.i think of "collect anything u wanted but dont collect demerit points" =3

gone back.slept at 8pm.woke at 12am+ bcoz forgot to switch off my laptop.then woke again at 7am bcoz daddy called for breakfast.......then my normal rountine~~ ahhh. =3 listening undang is something fun if the instruktor is funny~ =3

haiz next wednesday de going out all cancelled ler.undang test more important. xD actually can choose when de. between wednesday,saturday and sunday but i choose wednesday without knowing thats my day~ ><

jya~thats all.


Editted.21-dec.1:52PM.
woah read again and found many mistakes.well i lazy to checked it one-by-one ler.as long as you understand enuf liao. =3

uhhh.

one more bye bye.to my BH097A073!!i am free from prison xD.

and then one more exam.my license exam.instead of wishing me luck please teach me how to drive(for those who know ler) xD.wishing luck(can also but for junior who duno how to drive xD).

gonna be busy eh?.haha.holiday=go out la!.he he.erm.24 wan go count down at genting wor.23,24&25.like hell i can.i am still tied up.

okay nvm.if parents gonna tied me up until i am 30 then i also nvm la.if they dont wanna let go of their hands now i am gonna be a noobie who does not know anything in the future.

i just wanna go see movie,sing k,ice skating(first time),eat with fren,window shopping and etc~~ xD.


Editted 10:40pm
internet connection damn lag.i waited for 2 hours to download 遇見-stefanie sun ==ll.actually i already had that song.but diff singer.==ll damn.i heard this song in my father car and felt it was so familiar. ==ll.bcoz that song i always hear de.so meaningful.

bye bye.

need say bye bye to many things and some people too.bye bye shoes,uniform,secondary,skull.....and etc.bye bye to people is my classmate.our path is diff so i dont think i will see them anymore =)

that chance.had grow larger ^^.kai xin~.she had opened herself to me.today make a small cold joke and seeing her smiles make me so happy.tq for bringing light in my life =). i need u.but i dont think our path is the same.

i am sad thinking of giving u up.but...i dont know what to do anymore when it comes to you.i dont wan to leave yet i cant stay so close to you bcoz my desire will grow if u are near me always.

give up?like hell i will.continue? i dont know.if my feeling will hurt u one day then i will willlingly give up and be the one that hurt-ED instead of hurting u,bcoz u are my precious stone.

saaaa.back to the topic.ahhhhh daddy changed his mind AGAIN. == next time he change to let me be a kindergarten teacher again i will definitely grab it and dun wan let it go ==ll.

he asked me to work for him in his office.well there's my brother there.he is already so useful.why need me?rm1500.i felt guilty.what to do?! chikuso...i am not short of money.but if being a kindergarten teacher at puchong make me rugi then its not a WORK anymore.

see?go puchong i need lalu tol,my minyak kereta and many more.plus plus plus also rugi liao la.==ll.its also my dream+earning a bit money+experience.

haiz.today spm student screaming like hell. xD . screaming+raining+thunder+fireworks(damn noisy ==ll)=@@

ahhh so confused now.

hehe.

how much longer in the future is the one i am waiting for lays?oh my oh my.

i will definitely treasure you.but i wont say "forever". i had no confident in myself.i dont wan to dissapoint ur feelings.

its always ENEMY after lovers.i am afraid.thats why i choose my career.i had decided to work hard for my career.i will work.i felt guilty being a parasite for 17 years.

In This World,There Are People Who Are Naturally Gifted With Things That Others Can't Get No Matter How Much They Want Them Or How Much They're Willing To Pay.

sometimes,when i saw other ppl got something i dont.i might felt a bit envious.but i dont realize that i had something that they dont have.i dont appreciate the things i ownED.

say is more easier that do.i will listen to my heart.act from my heart.until i can no longer take it,i will probably give up.i am loyal to something.for food,career,family,fren(that i had choosen).

for love i dont know la.sometimes they said if u see him/her everyday u can mengeratkan hubungan.but the -ve is that wont u felt sien and then -----> break up?

haha.well i will just think about career and works for now. ^^ bcoz for a friends i liked very much.i am very dissapointed.i wanted her.but she is the one who had choosen xx(another girl) as a best fren.

i damn sad that time.first time i cried for a fren.i will remember that day until i die.last day of form 4.now there is a half chance.xx had choosen another fren.oh dear,choose me.i will loved u until it ends.as a friend.

half chance.duno if i shud grab it or ignore it.

curious curious.

curious how kids learn to talk?erm.as for me.i had low memory.i duno know how ppl still manage to remember the things happened 10/20/30/40 or mayb 50 YEARS ago de stuff.for me 3 years also more than long long liao.

ok.now all thats left is the twins.physic and chemiiii~~hahax.which = 6 papers = 2 days more.i am hungry now,but now is 11.14 only.

yesterday.still blur blur.rushing for exams.open my cup maggi mee.the water is not boiling(a.k.a the maid forgot to switch it on ^^).FINE!wait wait wait.6.50am liao.wait?the hell i will.

eat 2 pieces of biscuit.DONED!GONE!to school of course.

at school,in exam hall.hungry~sleepy~paper2~ (x_x)zzz <---me.paper 1 after eat a chocolate roti(which cost me o.60cent damn it.i buy at mini market 0.50cent only). (~^^~) <--- me when doing paper 1.

ah ha.next door is renovating.i hate those sound of screw(gauge?) duno la.bang bang bang bang bang. == . enuf la.when my house under renovation.i am FORCED to hear it for two WHOLE month (or more i think).

kindegarten part time dream = broke!!daddy said CANNOT!! TT sobs.its useless.i dont wanna earn back my daddy's money plus i wanna go outside world,away from my little world.just let me experience the cruelness of society.for it not then i wont learn.

ahh.christmas.in a blink of eyes.i love u~quick come.hmm.~~~hungry~~cya~

dui.

tsk.reli stress ler.haha i always think of blogging...IN MY DREAMS.

ah hah.yesterday after breakfast go see houses.that remind me of future.future huh.umm.future.what will my

career? ---> linked with business / anime?

house? ---> what the?

car? ---> .....@@

family? ---> tikus kat rumah saya. #==

my dreams.

-kindergarten teacher xD (part time)

-learn piano(or other instrument but daddy said its USELESS)

-earning money(part time)

tsk.something annoyed me these days.my fren said something like this 'weh u wan study business ar?ur account/counting skill so TERUK' .damn it.no need so direct la.well if i got the will i will do it anyway.

and then.hm.2 days more only.sej is killing me.sej is useless.if i study business why i need sej?except for when i am selling artifact or something like that.

friends.this year 5sc3 i thought it would be a complete hell.but nvm since i gt 2 great fren xD.and then others was reli hell.

talk about friends.i dont intend to make new friends.i am scared of betrayal.you could call me a coward.betrayal.hurt.pain.sorrow.sad.

oh ya.my spm's feng shui seat.infront indian.behind indian.left side a super notty malay guy.upsr,pmr and now spm why do i had fate with indians?i reli anti them lor to be frank.not becoz skin colour.skin colour is something that cannot be changed.its their personality.disgust me.touch here touch there.

isk.but since my life was like hell now.i am expecting something good to happen.its always a cycle.but more like this 1 day of happiness=10++ days of hell.~

oh ya.i need a punching bag.but nvm i think ioi fitness centre there got one eh?.ahhh.study study.so less reli enter my brain.see ya~

do my best ~weird but i felt full of confident leh.from where leh?hmm.

i wish you would come to mie..but that was only a wish.





set me free ... today a lot happens ... i got no mood to eat ... i skip my lunch ... for dinner,because i am eating with my father..thats why i need to but i ate a little ..










this slogan is what i always said when i was form 1..

he gave me a miserable life after that..everyday i wanted to see him but he kept on ponteng-ing..

if i promise not to kill you...can you suicide?

i might say this even now..i regret it..today i saw him..so close..he said "excuse me" while riding his bike..that time i am wearing my spec so i saw it very CLEAR.before i know it was him who said it i just let him go with the thought "where are u rushing to? =="

and after that i only realize that he did it on purpose..remembering my past was so hurt..but can we still be friend as i had said?can we?can i press down my feelings?can i make anything possible?can i?

everything start today morning..2am..i was scared and cried..why?why i need to suffer?crying is usual to me..but..2 am..i heard stomping footstep from my father's room..running up and down..i felt scared..coz i know something had happened..the atmosphere that time was scary and tense and cold.

hospital pantai.i hate you.i dont even wish to visit u because of bad things again.althou its my birth place but i still hate you.

today like usual going skull..but with mixing feelings.raindrops covers my teardrops.i did something awfully stupid AGAIN this morning.i bought my mc with me but its rainig so i slip it in my physic practical text book.

then i pass up all my text books la.and then after rehat,after all books has been return, only i realize that my mc.....it not i hand it to class teacher or not..what i worry i my name on it ==

after that..its adm..yesterday also got adm but teacher din give the exam paper why??!!why today ??why when i came to school you give out??!!why din u give it yesterday??fully despressed why i think of my friend pitying me..and stepping on me..

after all this rubbish there is more..but i will start with my good ones.. today..kept daydreaming..oh ya..when he called me that time i was with my malay fren(that super nice one)..she said "ooohh you...." haha i guess she can tell by the face of his..

he make a very cute face..and she kept on saying he was cute == haiz.we had NO MORE chances.that makes my heart race so i dont deny i like him.that make me almost langgar kereta ah == i din concetrate on road ><>

these days i realize this while helping my mom cooking..being a MOTHER was NOT EASY.they cook,do laundry, and most of all TAKING CARE OF BRATS.if its good kid nvm but mostly is bratssssss.

also other good thing is i maintain some of my emotions by reading comics..not mine..i finished it a bit slower than usual because my friend kept asking my this and that so i read it again and again ==

and then..hmm..i get duit raya from mamoru~~this one is the best thing..this is the second duit raya i get..i means malay de la..first is when i was standard 5 or 6..get from school de..

umm..then go home..skip lunch(but i drank a glass of ribena =) ).do something.do something.online.do something.facebook-ing.sleep.wake up.eat.sleep.online. *this is what i did everyday == but today with mixed emotions*

ohhh come to think of it..mayb i laugh too much yesterday..its always like that ..one day i laugh too much i will had many miserable days..its FAIR.

hey i realize i really does like mamoru and izumi(as friend) this is real feelings..not funny at all.they din mind to help others,good manners,without counting who correct and who wrong,always smiling..and etc..i really does love them!! they are the best!!

just now saw a video about drivers..accidents..then first thing come in my mind is "u wan die go home suicide.dont take other ppl with you!dont make more innocent ppl go die with you.i dont wish to be one or neither do i wish u to be the one.life has NO "TAKE TWO"

the same thing i will said for smokers,and others..

end here..

StrEsS

i felt more stress compared to when i am taking my spm trials..why?mie holiday also need so stress?erm the going out thing and my jealousy level grows..plus my anger for about 3+ people..

hating someone makes me felt tired..jealousy makes me angry..angry makes me hate..hate makes me tired..tired makes me more hate that person..

i felt so close to you but yet so far away..i am sad+emo+angry+jealous+etc..what can make me happy?...i also dunno..my feeling now is complicated..i felt like crying and shouting out loud..but now is night lor..

i felt sad..something is in my heart that i cant talk about..only him..but we broke up..we din contact for 2 month..if can i wish he NEVER show up or call me to remind this sadness again..my heart is breaking..

how i wish i could cry out loud now..i felt terrible with the mixing of all negative feeling..

=)

爱爱爱爱了几回

也明白其中滋味

付出的从来不会等于收回

我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回

也曾经为爱憔悴

爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈

我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人

我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

爱爱爱爱了几回

也明白其中滋味

付出的从来不会等于收回

我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回

也曾经为爱憔悴

爱情好人总比坏人狼狈

我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人

我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人

多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人

不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等

你就是我等的那个人

男人男人

女人女人

多么希望你是对的人

...

today so many happens so many forgotten..erm..like always(not always la sometimes) gossip bout other ppls XD..erm today exam moral lor..then when math enjoy chatting + studying with teacher and some fren i like (izumi chan a.k.a. faathimah + mamoru-chan a.k.a. asykin and banana-chan a.k.a tamarai and me a.k.a. saru-chan) haha..

the names is kinda cute hoho~..

i got many with the name karen..first of all carrot then current(I),voltage,kayang..ahh whatever..then ummm today beh song ppl talk bad about me when they are not perfect ><

erm..the time we study math,we also chat..i am so shocked to know izumi has 18 siblings..OMG!i was like "what the hell?!!" if it were me i had dies a long time ago..she had a step mother who was very garang one..sob pity her leh..hey i am serious here!!i dont pity her because wanna show i am kind..i really felt terrible when she said it..

i was even more worried when she said it with a calm face like nothing..well i supposed she had already fine with the situation..but still..........its hurting me..i felt sad.....why someone who was kind like dat need to suffer like this while bad ppl live wealthy!!thanks..i hate you!!

ppl i am interested in..duno why lately i felt very interested in some ppl..erm start with prince issac..whom i found in facebook..he was like a girl so cute..and i am interested because his status state.."in relation with Prince Danson"..erm i din mean to start with him well i got many fren behind and i scare i forget him later..

now start with my frens..only 2 lor..izumi and mamoru..they are so kind even thou i am just a fren of their erm starting from this year..i really like them..as fren la..they are the most humble and kind i have ever met..99.9 perfect..i really hope we can keep the frenship after graduate bcoz i had grow very fond of them...

i like them very much..even thou they are malays but their personality better than any of my chinese fren.. == i just terus terang..if i were to seperate from them i think i would be so hurt..izumi give a feeling to u like u wanted to protect her..

and then now for teachers..erm from form 1 i like..erm..

sej teacher - pn karpakam..she was gorgeous

science-en tan..because always play no nid study de..but i still score above 60 that time n_nv

moral-pn choong..she was so nice..BACK THEN..

bm-pn.siti mariam..nice teaching..gave us a lot hmwork..sometime feel very relax..

seni-pn...i forgot the name..but definitely not khairus and zareen == my seni teacher was the

best of these 3..seriously..thats why my seni always score above 70..

erm my memory is low..i think thats all for form 1..now form 2..

science-pn..aiya i forgot..i think pn nor......haiz i malas check majalah sekolah la..her teaching skill also very nice..i rmb i score 82 beat danny who score 81..haha..that time i very playful..love to play with my class de chinese guy..they all nice BACK THEN..

moral-pn choong...still same..

form 3

bi-pn azlin..super nice..i like her..erm my pmr result score A in bi..thx to her..

math-pn normalizam..also very nice..she make us rmb our square,cube,sifir,polygon's side and many more..and i score A for pmr as well XD i never thought that o..when i saw my pmr result math A very happy and shocked

bm-pn siti mariam..again..the same

form 4

chemi-pn puteh..cute,nice and great teaching skill

bio-pn zubaida..same as my chemi teacher..

moral-pn rohaida..also very nice

form 5

math-pn jamaah..she very nice..

physic-pn tuan nor asiah..also very cute and nice..

bi-pn ismariah..nice..

bio-pn norma..quite strict but nice teaching

erm thats all gua..other not interested/hated..especially moral form 3..erm there are also some i would like to see but never teach me..they said pn roseffin and pn faizulizami was nice..but i duno about that..

today moral that suren very noisy..i said something i dont wan to..this is what i said "suren shut up la..*then i said something very rude ><

hmm~

i love writing romance story..hmm i came up with one yesterday..it was just some sketch and imagination thou..erm i think of this while thinking of him..lately whatever i drew always(86%) ends up to be his face ==

erm the story was like this..there was a boy and girl in their standard 5..their first encounter was introduced by friend..their second coincidence encounter was when they went to a party..then they became fren and then best fren who shared everything..the boy's study was good while the girl's was very very poor..

then girl was good at the topic about love and the guy has no idea about love..then the have a deal..the deal was that the guy teach the girl about studies and the girl teach the guy about love and how to attract and confess..after a long time they realize they both fell for each other..

everything makes the guy easier to confess because the girl told him about love,her ideal and etc..they share everything making they understand each other very well..they went on very well.....bla bla bla..

mayb i think of writing this story about marriage and then divorce and THE END but that was like cruel..

i forgot how to love 3 years ago..i just care but i dont love..yesterday morning chat with a fren(can considered la) much more older than me de..a guy..erm..chat about he broke up with his gf..so i talk a lot to encourage him..this thing is so complicated i hate it..i wan ask izit really okay to sleep with ur gf?

then when after back yesterday damn angry..saw 2 bitches with makes me so angry..i hate them like without guys will die..one always trying to get guy's attention and one more like always wan a guy by her side..go die la! i hate bitch..

then one of my fren said.."ur class ar?"..erm this was a private question..well in my class if chinese i only like one chinese's personality only lor..then haha i post on my facebook la..and that person whom i chat to yesterday morning said something to encourage me too..then i said "i will try but it wont work on me" then he said "we both same la..only know how to saybut hard to do"

ya i totally agree with that but his case was diff..i can do 89%about forget about my bf..or should i say i hate complicated things that i avoid my body from..

hoho~

sometimes felt very angry from ppl copy and paste something thats urs and get commented for their's..== what da hell..these day still sick sick..that saturday..fever..damn!..

today go skul saw bastard..i wish that bastard never to appear before me again..

somemore..in facebook..there are friend who u know and view ur profile but din add u..its rude..if u dont wan add dont go view la..thats different for u dunno de ppl..but u know de ppl viewed ur profile and din add u == and dont add ppl who u dont meant to..

talking about attitude..i get along well with shy and normal ppl..i hate bitch and arrogant ppl..for those bitch who cant shuddup i even more hate!good breed of parents always produce good breed of child..so this blame their parents!

that saturday was my friend's bday..erm..i think of this when she ask for expensive present..is present about the price?then why dont u just gave him/her money instead?..

its better dont give rather than giving not sincere rite?so i dont like ppl i dont like giving me present because i MUST repay that..but if it was someone i like then with pleasure..

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sad~~

haiz..why these day my body like tau fu de..i hate it..before 2009 i was a very lively child..i rarely fell sick..but now..always sick..that day allergic also nvm la..today morning..very happy thought i will go out with friends to buy books and celebrate their birthday..

so as always..go eat breakfast..so damn unlucky..first of all..the milo ais there...buy milo ais free nyamuk..== go die!!second..the pork mee worker has problem with hearing..then nvm lor..

balik rumah..still happy..but a bit stomach pain..haiz always de la..so beria-ria go take my cloth for going ioi~~suddenly..my leg felt no energy to walk..i felt dizzy..i felt my head was burning..so i went to my mother room ask her check..she said "ur heartbeat was fast go eat pils"

this make me scared..u know..i always sore throat,cough and flu..but rarely got fever..now fever+flu+cough+dizzy..what the hell..like h1n1 symtom..then when i think back it was like..not so ngam ba..baru pagi makan pork mee..then kena swine flu??damn..

tired~~

hmm found two word these day in other language that i felt so meaningful ^^ thats "Que Sera Sera" i search it because i saw my fren wrote it in my class's black notez..the other is "hakuna matata"..this was because today my nephew came over to play and they watch tv..

so it reminds me of when i watched lion king..hakuna matata..then these day damn sick..mayb will post some pictures later..now after i lived for 16 years and about 7 months baru i know what am i allergic to..haix..damn Mega clinic!!

that day(last friday) like always went to skul..then i cough on the last 3rd period thats math..and i took some cough and flu medicine so i saw the antibiotic and since i took the two then i should took antibiotic too rite?

so i took it..after few SECONDS..damn..i felt burning..itchy..i thought it was nothing..then dunno why pressure from pn charanjit who came in suddenly scolding the boys for stealing something(i duno..they said it was lencana sekolah or something ==)

when she came in i felt pressure and thus increase my temperature..hot!!then my fren suddenly.."karen borrow rubber...are u crying??" what the hell..i wont cry suddenly okay?..==

i felt weird so i ask why?she said "ur ears and eyes are red!" what the hell..i felt it was weird..then the one sat beside me said "yalar" then i answered "no i just scratch it a little"

few SECONDS more..i felt my head spining,burning and felt like something was pushing up to my head..i felt dizzy..suddenly my face all red..i felt terrible..this experience was more painful than any disease before..

is this a punishment from God?..haiz..dunno why felt like these all weekend also busy..weekend is supposed to be my rest time!!! ==

zzz

hahax..these days..here are the question i answered and then question i asked..first ppl like to ask me ponteng ar?..hahax its not like a rare thing..

and second is when i go LAWAT doctor..*evil grin*

result..

eat this..==..that red bottle scared me..red=danger/blood..oh yeah the two tablets on left is small but the one on right is so big nia~~ TT but nvm i had taken more big one before..

my fren once asked me "ei u are tau fu ar?" ~~~ haix..see ah..hmm the black bottle is for cough then the yellow pil for flu and kahak then surat cuti(^^) then fever pil and lastly the red bottle..duno what izit..just drink it XD mati lebih cepat la..

on the red bottle just wroted 1 cup 3 times ==

then i ask doctor lor..why no gimme antibiotic?know what is the answer?.."u took too much" what the..but if i look back i really did..i took a lot kind of antibiotic and MANY TIMES of those pils..

i had already biasa with taking pils..basic pils like flu,cough,headache,fever and etc..ei the above pils..when i think of it..why izit like h1n1 symtoms de?==

haiz..so malang la!!!!!!!!!

there are 3 thing disamping i wanted to say thats

• if u dont like answering question then u also not supposed to ask question!!
• STOP telling me RUBBISH,i DONT need it..i only TRUST wat i SAW by my own eyes..
• and lastly if u would like to gossip other ppl..then look in the mirror first or shud i lent u one if u are so poor?..look at ur shit face before u started gossip bout other ppl..

even if u are pretty/beautiful u are not SUPPOSED to gossip or talk bad about other ppl!!they are none of ur *beep*ing business..

even if u are a beauty if u owned a black heart what does ur face means?for u to became a whore?oh yeah..ur *beep* face makes me wanna puke/vomit..i dont like ur act..

Past..

i am phobia of many thing..i am scared..i had a lot of fear..fear to/of:

• look
• explain
• hear
• understand
• touch
• experience
• being included
• look behind
• love
• being love
• hate
• being hated
• being jealous
• being greedy
• make friends
• pain
• fear of school
• being look down
• being betrayed
• being hurt
• remembering my past
• hurting ppl
• making ppl in pain

and many more....i had too much to fear..its because of him dat i felt myself step over this all pain and fear..but now its over..i dont know how long can i stand straight coz its over..last saturday i found a ring that he gave me..i cried but i felt happy in the same time..

this ring i wanted to find it a long time but always say "later" when we are still together but now its over and this ring......i will kept it..as a memory of my pain..now this all pain and fear step over me..i dont know what to do..

i am sorry..now that i realize i liked him too much..he is caring..and sometimes i felt he was annoying thou..now i know that i liked him..i will........kept on being "saudara angkat" with him..

i had a habits of liking old things...to those old thing i wont forget(70% pain memories)..i cried everyday for now..i.....i dont wish to look back..i wish to look forward..today is another bad day but i am glad..because eveytime i had fun then...i also meant i will suffer many days..

i will treasure the ring..this ring now stand for our in-law-ship(saudara angkat)..everything in the past i hoped he forget it..because the past me was terrible than how terrible i am now..i will also start to forget about old memories..

my memory card was not very big so if u ask me yesterday's stuff i can still answer you but if u ask me something like over a month ago mayb i cant answer u..these day i saw him in skul(another one) i turn away from him and walk a different path so that i wont see him face-to-face..

we agree on being friends but it still hurt..its hurting me inside because i dont know whether he is sincerely being my friend or he is just making fun of me..i am scared..because of the past i dont dare to look forward and i got phobia against some guys..

now shud i clean all the memories and used a new one?although it wont be 100% clean..it will take a very very very long time to forget sad memory..

zzzzz

aiya..these day damn bad luck..hmm i will start with the day i go "fun day"..well first of all i beh song walking in the storm(erm hiperbola?yeah)to get in ioi..then on waited for my friend's younger brother for around 30 minutes..==

haiz..then later encounter some 38(sampat) girl..felt damn terrible..then go home nia??~~of cuz go back ioi and walk around the jambatan to the other side ALONE(first time lor~~) zzz..then arrive the other side waited more than 30 minutes bcoz my father go buy dinner ==

aikzz..go back sleep..zzz

and next is last friday..u know i will remember these day forever(friday 10-7-09 and saturday)

know wat?i hate it so much !!now i will say bout friday..first of all worried about my sej,then kena cubit by my chemi teacher TT i cant help it wat..then later on got some more happens..

and when i came back from skul and nothing happen then at night i realized i left my sej long man at skul TT so how am i goin to do it?i end up calling my friend asking the essay question..it took me rm30+1 hour time+my energy..damn it..i learnt a lesson..

then i slept at more than 3am for friday because wan finish my sejarah essay TT..first time so late nia~~~my latest wake up time was 4pm..== hahax that day chat about this..erm i skip my supper+breakfast+lunch replaced with dinner == more menjimatkan XD

erm then saturday..one-day-maid-service-without-paid == hahax..i had fun with my friend..ummm..there was one thing i was angry on lor..i planned on getting my book for the struktur question but the i encounter..

first two teacher..pn asadah(duno la) and pn norjah..so i asked for the key to form 5 gate..they said in office and bla bla bla..kesian hui ying XD i asked her to accompany me..

then arrive at pejabat..incredibly silent..see lala playing computer == this is what i hate now..u see when i talk with her with full manner,she answer what u know?..damn her..she said "u are not SUPPOSED to be here and u are NOT SUPPOSED to go up too" go die!she said in a very high tone and like sindiran..

the no mood but then when come back from skul go eat sushi..so nvm la..sushi good good~~

aiks then got more forgot jor..becoz just now do the 100 truths on facebook and then make card for my daddy's bday ^^

well i do think all this is because i had too much fun the day before TT

news!!

120,000 picked for next NS

• BIDOR: Some 120,000 youths born in 1992 have been randomly chosen to take part in next year’s national service camp.
• National Service Training Depart-ment director-general Datuk Abdul Hadi Awang Kechil said they were chosen from a pool of 500,000 youths.
• “They can start checking their status at 11am today,” he said yesterday after opening a national service training at the Nilam Ehsan Camp here.
• To check using SMS, type “PLKN (space) SEMAK (space) identity card number” and send to 15888. Each SMS costs 20sen.
• Further details can be obtained at www.mysms.gov.my. Alternatively, one’s status can be checked at www.khidmatnegara.gov.my.
• “The list of names have been uploaded,” said Hadi.
  
• http://www.thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2009/7/1/nation/4230035&sec=nation
  

copy from today's The Star..www.thestar.com.my

wah yesterday i checked already but some human say it might be lied so today after see this news go check again and the result was stil the same..

lol my fren said "kena toto also not that tepat ah!!" lol..i dont know why ppl are so over the death of MJ..== i am not his fans so i had no feeling

its annoying seeing ppl take about him everywhere..friendster,facebook,msn,my space,blog and everywhere ==

now my fren had stop talk about it and start with the NS thinggy..

quick quick if u are 92---- go check it now.. using sms type PLKN(space)SEMAK(space)(ic number) send to 15888

things happened today..

today actually very lazy to blog but without blog i cant remember my memories..first of all is about HSM3 senior year..i just watched it(haha so out date huh?)yeah actually planned to watch it december/jan(i forgot..dat time go with my frenz..time square(i think) then found out HSM3 no jor so we watched bevery hill's chihuahua..it was fun..)..

there was a phrase that i like the most..its dat when Troy tolds Gabriella that "My prom is where ever you are"..awww sweet...so nice of him.. ^^ i think pupus jor la this kind of guy..and his eyes are very Marvelousz..

hmm when think about prom..my skul got one..ummm..make by my skul mates(not my fren,they are from 5sc1)..then i think i would go if that person who collects money din go lor..i better go with the one i like la..and the second problem duno who to go with..

and plus i would NEVER torture myself by goin out with the one i dont even like..i like everyone EXCEPT arrogant ppl..i cant stand them..i can be extremely kind to those who are kind and extremely cruel to those........

next about skul..today in skul there are thing to discuss..first about smoking and then the flu..uhm..actually i think its stupid!!yeah h1n1..u see its better to stop producing the rokok better than putting some organs picture on it..see?its stupid work of stupid human..

then h1n1..i wouldn mind if the skul is closed..but sebaliknya i will be really really happy..first bird flu then pig flu later?ant flu.....then chicken,vegetable,fish,insect,duck and cats flu...damn..

just now saw some of my facebook's fren picture..so pretty in malacca..wish i would go lovey dovey with my special one ^^(isn it too early to daydream?)

then think of going to amusement park with him too ^^awww...

hmmm..just now..5 minutes ago received a phone call from my ex..aiz u know i would hurt more if u keep calling..but if u dont keep calling i would always run from the fact that i broke up with u..so this is the best way to kept our 5 years relationship..but it hurt me so bad..

back to the point..first he missed called me then i think what important business izit?..later he called me again..he asked "izit ok?" ..what??then when i think about it i think he is talking bout some skul has been closed bcoz of h1n1..

oh ya today in skul too..tiba-tiba my bm teacher suddenly ask us to bersih kelas and i am monday..damn u!!other day u dont ask!!then when i go return the penyapu to 5sc4 kena pick a fight by a chinese guy..i dont know him!!he was like "what was u doing!!??" who the heck are u to scold me?!!

then i said "its ok"..he said "i'm relieved..tell me if anything happen"..hmmm why did i felt that when we were together u are also like diz now we broke up and u are STILL like diz??the reason i broke up with him are..........he is too caring..i SHOULD ALWAYS AND FOREVER bless him with his beloved..wish they lived happily ever after.. :)

BitCH

really felt stress+sad+dissapointed..i have a lot of problem..i dont like hyperactive human that hurts me..

today get to know something about that bitch..she is just 100% bitch..i tell u..first of all this was something happen..this bitch msn A(A is B's fren) and said she still has feeling for B so A ask B to make up with her la..

and then later is valentine..B gave her something..and that bitch said "yer so ugly la!!" almost everyday..damn u..do u have parents?do ur parent have manner?and lastly do u have manners?i think u 100% no MANNERS bitch!!

then one more thing is dat..they broke up after valentine..u know wat she said?she said "i just wan someone to accompany me for valentine only..duno why guys like her looks..but INSIDE she is just as BLACK AS SHIT!!(i think shit is better)

yeah i could tell she is 68% pretty..but a lot guys in my school like her..why ar?

i really hate bitch like her!!go die la!!

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another damn day..curse those pig..the picture for the class thing i failed to take it coz the table has already rearraged nicely but stil looks like...................==

damn it..i also failed to find the culprit..damn nvm..this is my lesson..i wont do something so careless and i wont trust pig..

today at skul i was damn angry bcoz of adm marks..then when back home my father din give me keys and din unlock the door..so i just go to my father's shop..on the saw a really bullshit lorry and a s hole black car..i din wear spec so cant see the car's number..

damn..that black car still wan to go in even though there is a big lorry on the way out..and one more,bullshit lorry so piggy..u know that road is very very very very sempit!!u stil go in and out there?then when i think this..then how is he going to deliver the stuff mayb..damn it u can use a smaller van..no need a LORRY..damn u..

black car no brain+bullshit lorry=damned..

but all of this the conclusion is.....damn police..the job i hate the most is police..u can guest it why..I NEVER HAD GOOD VIEW FOR POLICE EVER SINCE I AM FORM 1 thats also why i hate novel bukit kepong!!

after that in skul was a BIT funny la..my fren told me a joke like this...

there was a couple..a far distance one..they always chat through sms..then its almost hari raya(duno she said they are malays..why ar?i wonder) then the girl ask the guy to come over for open house..then the two day before then girl stop replying the guy..

then on hari raya the guy is at the girl's home but the girl din show up..then the guy mets the girl's parent and he asked where is the girl..her parents told him that she died 5 years ago in a car accident..

the guy din trust them and her parent showed him her corpse and he still din believe it..so..when the guy went home..he sms the girl and said

"your parents told me that u had died 5 years ago"

she said "yes" and the guy said "then why u can sms-ing with me now??"

and guess what she answered??

she said "kerana digi berada di mana-mana"

*i almost felt like == when i heard that and i laugh non stop until i step out of skul ==*

there is stil continue..then he asked her "then why u din reply me two days before hari raya?"

and she answered "becoz i din top up"

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sorry la i cant remember exactly what she said la..

and then before this we played some teka teki..here is one..why when nyamuk bited u,ur skin get red?

the answer is........becoz they wore lipstick..

so cold ahhhh==

damn bastard(pork)

oh today really angry..at night i call my fren ask about the yuran..about this yuran really would like to kill the bastard..they pick yuran on january then now once more??damn la :@

then she said about our class..this really make me go crazy..she said "our class has become so dirty and upside down"

damn i am gonna sue that class if i know who did it..i will see it tml..which babi duno how to use table..before holiday our class was like this

under my creation and work..damn those babi..later i will post the "NOW"s photo..nasib baik she said it was pa/p class student who did it..damn..really angry..u see i put my heart into adjusting this class..

and now being violated by babi..and become kandang babi..DAMN!!XXXX!!bastard!!know how much WORK DONE i put into working on this??!!

i put my heart into it..and i felt a little angry when this din become the best class..that i stil can say nvm..but it is too much to violated something other ppl make..babi no mother teach ar??!!

haiz..

hmmm so long din blog eh?

well these day a lot happen..everytime when i online i plan to blog but it always end up with other activity like playing pet society..

ah about this pet society..u better have time to play it EVERYDAY..geez..if not u will get dissapointed(well duno u la..but i am) because ur pet will be kicked down(i mean the rank will get lower)

after pet society i will download game then download download and download..then i will check msn contact and delete UNIMPORTANT BASTARD..which kept emailing me stupid email and website..

then continue with adjusting desktop..then i will refresh my phone song with the song i download..then times up and i gotta go home..

then when i am home its always "aiya forgot to blog"..haiz..then i malas to say the old thing la..erm do u like ppl touching ur stuff?i hate it..

and do u like ppl asking u to call them??well its damn annoying right?especially when its a girl to girl..damn her..why do i wan to call u?she always said "hey my phone no credit..call me plz" like hell..do u think my phone got credit for person like u??

i hate it..haiz why am i always so bad luck?if i could get shoo yuen as my best fren..but i had giv up on her..because she belongs to another girl(sorry i am not.....) just best fren la..

just now dat girl that always ask me to call her also always using other ppl..well like this..

-her money NEVER go out and

-always ask ppl to belanja her

damn it la..why the hell i need to pay for u?u are not anyone special..except for shoo yuen la..(once more i remind u i am not....)

erm then..PLKN..if u got read new paper dunno last saturday or sunday la..there is a lot of rubbish in that newspaper..rubbish refer to PLKN..

== dunno which bastard nothing to do then create this PLKN thing..i hate it..damn..

damn..

haha moral folio haven finish..damn it i hate doin moral folio..i curse the one who create this idea to do folio WITH PICTURE to die(if he/she is..i wish he/she never reborn..if already reborn then i curse him/her to be sad FOREVER)..

i dont care doin folio but the picture was damn..u see its not like i can find anyone to take for me..if i am like my fren got a mother who was willing to help or little siblings..i am the youngest among my family relative?i think so...duno la..

talk about relative..i hate one of my father sibling..his whole family(his wife and daughter too..his son is still okay..because i rarely talk to him..or shud i say i NEVER talk to his son before??)

yeah i hate his whole family..he is a cheapskate,arrogant,like s hole and his wife is like s hole too and his wife is even a bitch..

lets see..if one of his family die i would wish to my father that "i DONT wan to visit them or go to their funeral"

so geram ah..just now he came to do some business(and he done something cheapskate before ==) i dont want to be rude so i called him "uncle" and he din respond!!go die la!!even the teacher in skul answer by a nod(really??!!no its not..dah nama chuan teacher mana ada angguk punya..just some teacher la)

hey use brain and think this..i called u "uncle" is not because i scare u..its because i respect my father,i dont wan ppl say my father no teach me manners and i respect him as my uncle..

damn it i will NEVER call him again..i will call him FXXXer if u wan..

okay stop this talk bout teacher..damn..u see one of my wish is also to be teacher..the job i hate the most is police..not because i scared to die but for some reason they really does irritated me..annoying!!

teachers..i dont like teachers too..but i wan to be one because..i know i can be a better teacher than mine now!!

talk bout future..lately my father said "kah yan..u better learnt business before u work 4 me"..umm i have think about it..erm..u see if i study business then i can be a part time and learnt piano at the same time??i even think about this..

morning:business classes

evening:part time job

night:piano lesson

hmmm...how dreamy...this all are my wish..but i'm always an unlucky child so God will never give me such perfect life..go dream bah..

haha talk bout my father..hmmm i think all parents really does understand their child huh??but not completely though..ummm u see dat day(i think last thursday..when got that damn pameran thing in my skul..and i hate my fren) so i just silent myself..

on the same time that day my fahter same late..then when reach home i kept myself in my room and then slept..until night..my fahter ask "dont wan eat ar??" i said "dont wan..."..actually really dont wan eat la..no mood..

then my father thought i merajuk becoz he came late to pick me up today..haha but then tmr(Labour day?yeah i think so well its friday)..i woke up and felt really sick..and then go eat (still silent with some cough)

then my father asked "what happen yesterday??teacher scold?(no way i am not a bad student..*grin* haha mayb some la..i am kinda rebellious)fight with fren??"(haha i have NEVER think he can get it right..not fight just argument..

i am a kid who get mad at a lot of thing la..==

then he said "if got anything happen say la!if u silent up how i shud know o??" haha so nice..

then talk about yesterday i saw him again and again..hey now dat i know u see from form 2 i din see him much..but this year i saw him TOO much??haha..yeah yesterday no class also saw him..what i meant by no class is after skul..

sob after skul my fren left me T.T but nvm la..i duno she left so i search for her..then on the way back i saw him from second floor(pejabat there to the dataran there)

and he is like moving his hand(means bye) so i also move my hand(we din even talk for years..3 years?yep around..)

haiz..its annoying but i wont try to forget him..now that i know if i try to forget him i love him more and i try to search for him everyday ==

and i even tried to avoid him everywhere and each time i saw him..when he move his hand for a "hello" to me when we meet i just reply him..its rude and arrogant not to respond..i am not a noble or a genius so i cant have those arrogant side..

erm usually thrusday i will saw him on the was back from chemi lab coz his class(5p2 is there) haiz..then i would saw him too when i go bio or physic lab..and even my class this year is the opposite to his..

i like hangging around corridor when teacher is not in class or i'm boring..that time i might saw him and if i saw him i try to avoid and TERPAKSA sit quietly and be gud girl in class..becoz no mood to stand around the corridor jor..

i love the corridor breeze..it felt good..

hmmm what a long blog ^^