so what?

yeah this is the mostly word i would say "so what?"..that day (i forget the day) yeah..its terrible..i feel like saying all those XXXX..

these day i really stuck and addicted to manga and anime..and i like this word "i did everything for my own merits!" from Ootori kyouya-ouran high school host club..

an sleeping angel...actually the before me i like study coz i gt my confident when i gt number 1 in my form 1 march test..well that time i was shock and every classmate is shock too..i was like "no way!how can this be?"bt thats the fact..well my form 1 class is 1 kental the 3rd last class..well nvm la...

then i start to improve?(i think) bt that time something crush my confident..my father said something like "dont pujuk urself comparing to those who is nt so good..compare to those who gt full A's"..

so what?gt many A's with no heart?well i think nowaday no one would talk this stupid heart anyway..

the violinist..tsukimori len,ousaki shinobu and hino kahoko..

the flute..yunoki azuma..

the cello..shimizu keiichi..

the trumpet..hihara kazuki..

the pianist..tsuchiura ryoutarou..

i am destroyed by the so-called "friend and xxxxxx"..just now some question pop in my head.."why i need to depend on other ppl??" i decided to depend on myself and nt trusting ANYONE..no matter who is that...

haha okay fine hey wanna share an iq question..i gt a lot since i like asking and ppl ask me back..so i collect a lot of funny one and nt logic bt logic also gt..haha here the question is like this

u need to borrow rm100 so u borrow A's rm50 and B's rm50..then u use that rm100 to buy a pair of sport shoes rm97 then left rm3 so u shared it..u giv rm1 to A and rm1 to B and rm1 more u keep it urself..then u actually borrow rm50 from A and B right?so now u payback rm1 to A and B..now u hutang rm49 with A and rm49 with B..49 plus 49 equal rm98 then plus ur rm1 is rm99...so where does rm1 more go??

this question was weird and the answer was stupid..many ppl giv me many different answer..then they said this question was "FOR STUPID PPL" i was like "huh??"..

ANSWER:"that human count wrong jor"..u see..the sport shoe is 97..97 divide by 2 is 48.5 so 48.5 plus 48.5 equal 97 then plus the rm3 left is rm100 lor...i also dun understand so much la..why divide by 2?i once ask the one who give me this answer and she answer "because that human like to count ma so divide two as for A and B lar"

I STILL DONT GET IT!

bleeding hate...

what the heck....today was the most hurt la(i think) among fren la...well today get some result and wasn so gud...so i sit there quitely and thinking then i look around..my class gt 5 girls include me..so chai jing and shoo yuen is sleeping..chai jing so kreative she slept on 3 chair haha...i wonder does it feel gud??haha..soik yin and pei yin are like so boring..

then suddenly something come to my mind..."one frog" "yi zhe qing wa" well my chinese was not so gud..then i start it "one frog/yi zhe qing wa" den soik yin sambung "jump into the water/tiao jing sui li" then pei yin "bom"..haha then shoo yuen join and then chai jing too...after that shud be "two frog/liang zhe qing wa" then again "two frog/liang zhe qing wa" then "jump into water/tiao jing sui li" then "jump into water/tiao jing sui li" then "bom" then "bom"..bom is like the water sound...

then the more we play the atmosphere seem to change..pei yin so blur she made the most mistake...den after play we go bc class and teacher say "okay today i gt meeting" well i din like that teacher very much ler...or shud i say i dun even like her...then after she go out..we start again but this time combine with some 4sc1 and 4sc4 student..

this time we play an edited one..i plan to edit this game...this was the result(i think this was the arrangement,just short cut)

pei yin-one frog
chiao hua-jump into water
shoo yuen-bom
me-two pig(start to change from the person who will say number)
pei yin-jump in to lumut(well u know lumut..this is real so when she say it we all laugh)
the next for voice i suggest-biek..haha...

then duno why from animal start to change to bags..does bag make sound??haha we all have a great laugh..as i said b4 1 day happy then one or more day will be worst..yeah then after play this we play card plus true or dare..that time is almost bell rang time..the last one was shoo yuen..i was hurt..

pei yin-true or dare?
shoo yuen-what is true?
pei yin-*explain*
shoo yuen-what is dare?
pei yin-*explain*(well pei yin like to echo me and take the lead)
shoo yuen-true
pei yin-here who was ur best fren?
shoo yuen-two(i think she is trying to say soik yin and me..well other ppl she duno she is a newbie)
pei yin-*forcing* choose one
shoo yuen-soik yin!

at the time she choose her the bell rang...i am lucky that it was almost back time bcoz i really feel like crying and i was lucky that the exam is over if its exam then i wont even hav the mood..and then i was lucky(so many lucky haha) that i know it before my love deepen for her..now we are fren okay??...haha...nvm i will search for the one have the mutual interest as me and an one hearted fren...

okay about this pei yin she was truthly blur...i think when physic time..all chinese girl and the one and only indian girl sit at the last like a group...that time 4sc2 take exam in 5sc2..well chinese in my line at the first is soik yin then shoo yuen then me at the last..beside me is tamarai and infront tamarai is pei yin and infront pei yin no one..


okay the story begin..i think its the pyhsic paper on friday..teacher give soik yin 3 graph paper because shoo yuen and me is behind and she(that teacher) give pei yin two graph paper..u know wat she asked?

pei yin-teacher!*take up her hand*
teacher-what?
pei yin-why she get 3 and i get 2??*pointing at soik yin graph paper*
teacher-pass to the back la...
pei yin-*shut*

haha then we laugh around her...haha she is...duno how to express well her result are gud bt BLUR!!i talk to her need to repeat two times..like u say once then she will ask back "what u talk juz now?i dun understand la"...haha..


and then i think this yesterday the last day of exam so i TERsee (ter- is bm TERSEPAK and see is bi LOOK) so its TERsee two ppl moral paper with Pn Rohaida(i like this teacher)..well that two person i dun need to say their name la...their marks one is "half mark" oh man...half??yeah half nt even ONE...the other one get 9..when i read one answer he wrote "potong tangan dan bergantung diri" so at first i tot "potong tangan dan gantung diri" haha...i know this both ppl..then other chinese take a look and laugh too....


i think that question was about "what u will do if u kena ragut.." its RAGUT..ragut..okay?...okay...last year christmas present was the best(i think its last year..enchanted haha..)chak see ya..jeanna..

argh argh argh argh argh argh argh....

well to tell the truth i use blog to express my feeling to those "???" person...yeah exam is over..HOWEVER...stil nid take result...d*** it..u see when i say i wan go skul then i will get the answer "aiya go for what la....sit home la" but when i say "i dun wan go la...so sien" then u know whah answer i get?? "what la u ponteng ponteng huh huh??like gengster..." i feel like why me??why nt other ppl??why me??


well as u see...i finish exam-ing...then?my fren and i plan to go out..so i ask my father and he said "okay ioi?ok...i will take u all go" so i am happy...then suddenly my fren told me "its sunway" u know what i feel like...#$%XXXX....suan la i am alone after all...haiz why me??


okay so one of the human who go fui yen..she got everything that i dont..and shoo yuen too...why they got everything i dont??it look unfair ya noe??well i ask fui yen

me:hey ur papa and mama let u go out freely??
fui yen:ya..they are so open minded de
me:haiz... T.T
fui yen:ur parents just want protect u only
me:*talk in heart*protect??i rather suicide..u wont understand...

and then i really envy she gt freedom with open minded parent..loved by all and the most especially enemy i got she dont!!!my most dangerous enemy always "ting" at me and trying to do a lot of bad stuff...well i understand GOD giv us bad thing to elakkan the worst thing happen so i only sit and pray about him...he has no cure...let GOD cure him...i wont hate him..instead i prayed for him..why me??


oh ya?after this i really dun understand a lot of thing...these day being betrayed very hurt...i rather say "can i die now??" i had no meaning to live on..if i died i am 100% sure he will be happy...isn it so "???" person...i felt hurt everytime i see him bt i also need to smile to him..everytime after see him,i will cry...why me??


so conclusion why me??!!!!!!well if GOD say i did commit crime like killed then i would say "i will accept this sincerely"..bt what did i do??!!!!!past life sins??i really dun wan to sabar anymore..i had my limit..i dun like those ppl who always watching me do what and try to making me felt sad and hurting me..i dont want this d*** thing..XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!like hell i would want it...

wah..

LORD has given me one precious thing..i treasure it..IT is a human..he is wonderful..haha..wow since september 27 i din blog oh...connection problem and bla bla bla..study study study..haiz so sien la this life...urg...