wuhooooooo.......

hmmm i heard tml is gotong royong so should i go??hmmm maybe its nice...to help..oh ya i MUST make a change of myself leh..its somekind terpaksa what...hmmm a bunch of thing i cant do leh...but i will try it...

CANT
-hate
-trick
-lie
-say those #&*%$@# erm the bahasa kasar la..
-kill
-commit ******** (well my friend told me)
-disobey the LAWS
and much much more...(nt nice de thing la)

MUST
-love (i will have to try hard on this because i even need to love my enemy leh..even girls...haiz)
-good
-pure
-trust
-have faith in GOD
and much much more(good thing la)


yeah i try it..now i am trying the most hard for me is to love even ur enemy..oh my oh my..yeah i make them transparent but thats not a kind of love...cis...cheeseeee..but i try not to hate him anymore..and i did sms him lately..so i feel happy after i make up with him..maybe because i less a beban(the hate feeling)..its really a heavy feeling to keep inside u..


and lately i have been smile a lot and then that day (maybe tuesday 5-8-08) i was smiling and laughing and playing really crazy but then who would have guess that it return as sadness in the next day (wednesday 6-8-08)??yeah i think i will have to keep alone all the time..because bersusah-susah dahulu,bersenang-senang kemudian..


i have been keeping myself away from my dear friend..they are all clever and i am always left OUTCAST..real friend huh..i wonder does it exist??or even the word FRIEND is just an illusion??....i had no idea..