so much malang leh....

hmmm so much malang thing happen...bad luck...but i chose to bear with it because shu wen say that "its because the evil spirit envy u,so they make u suffer and think that GOD is evil..."...yesh i totally agree with her...thankz shu wen!!


really a lot of thing happen BUT everything bad happen..once i see his laughing and funny face or sms with him i will smile and regain my confident...today i am so happy and i scared tomorrow could be a day when i suffer...today i really like the sky colour in evening..its pretty i wish i could take a pic of it but i din bring my phone to school...its pretty and make u feel happy and peace...the colour of nature sky,ocean,cloud,air,grass...i love these colour...


hmmm today i feel really really angry neh...i say i need to control myself so i did half of it...a friend ask me "what happen??" when i am really really feel wan to commit a perfect crime to kill a human...then i tell her "please dun kacau me when i am in an extremely low mood..." and then she give up so...slowly slowly i regain my smile and laugh by making that person who make me angry TRANSPARENT!! geez...suan liao...


its more heavy if i hate him so i chose to anggap him transparent..i tell u who read this..hating is soooo heavy that making u more sad and hurting urself...so just dun do this BAKA thing or follow my baka path of hating ppl...instead of hating u can try loving or AT LEAST dun hate..at least just anggap him or her u hate TRANSPARENT then ur life is perfect without an enemy...


i have a habit of knowing a lot of ppl but then after few day i get bored..it feel like after i am bored i pretend as if i dont know that ppl..usually i dun talk to the one i feel arrogant..except when he/she ask me something then no reason for me to be rude by ignore him/her..so terpaksa jawab instead of being called arrogant by other ppl to me...


i am always always friendly..hehez..oh ya sambung just now...when i regain my smile and laugh(not fully)..i force myself to smile and laugh...i dun wan anyone to ask me "what happen??" and i malas to answer anyone what happen....and then the time i back...well i back at 1.05 then i ask my papa to come at 1.40 cause i am not sure i have chemistry additional class or not..


and then the result is NO chemi class so i and two of my classmate sit at the inside school,behind bus stop to blow water(chui sui u know??) like talk nothing...hehez then sit until around 1.40 their father come so they go back so i walk slowly to the place where i usually wait for my father..i walk there slowly by thinking.."hmmm how to do that math question??" and a lot more stuck in my head until..


1)then i see one of my school mate (can be called friend??duno...) and i walk across the road to her...then after a few minute she merungut to me..and i listen to it...she say "usually its not this late de..." i answer "ohhhhh...." then after a few minute the car arrive so she go back lur...she is so cute..mun yee which is the so called MING YEE in chinese...well she is still kekal the 'yee' at the back but me is totally different...kah yan so called jia en...


so i make an english name karen...i has an english name before JENNY but if u check the dictionary it mean "female donkey,keldai betina" lol the first timei know this is because when i am form 1/form2 one of my tuityen friend choo pei wen check her dictionary with my name..because nothing to do..and find it..geez..why me...nt good thing always me kena...good thing no me de...


2)and then after she go back..i sambung thinking what is the answer for all my question then unpredictablely someone come and he say "wah so lonely o??..." >.< ...hehe he is so friendly even i am not so rapat with him but he is a part of cell group...and then he ask me "alone hor??" and then i answer "enn.."(a kind of nod) then he ask me "u always stayback friday right?" then i answer "enn..."


then he ask me why dun i bring the two newbie??then i answer "they dun want go..." and he say "ohhh..." so funny...his name is kelvin and with 3 other guys..well they are all chinese so i wouldn scare of them and they all looks so good..they are like nice lor..but if its indians or malay guys(stranger or the one i duno) i will ignore them...hmmm i hope i berjaya convince shoo yuen and soik yin stay with me friday..or at least ONLY shoo yuen please...


even though they are newbie but many ppl notice them...no matter form3,4,or 5 (no matter science or princip account or perdagangan class..no matter genius or sebaliknya..) and a lot of ppl seem to like them..especially shoo yuen..really cute,pretty and clever most important not chuan ppl but i am not her so called BEST FRIEND coz she is always stick with soik yin..well i am juz lonely after all huh..hehe but nvm maybe that suit me...being left behind is so fish..hehez..


then he say do u know him? *pointing at adrian* and i say "enn..." so malu la talking to him..and then adrian is someone i ignore when i dun understand that i once love him..so now i understand..and he goes say "hi" with a funny and smiling face lol...i feel wanna laugh out loud..he is at the across road when he shouting at me..he scared me T.T (i think)...


i think they are a group with 4 ppl...kelvin,ken,adrian and tan guan ming..the last one is someone who has a misunderstood for me..becauseof a thing happen during form 1..so until now we din talk..i think form 2 i apologies to him(phone) and he say "sorry for what?" but then at school he make me transparent leh..so i think form 3 i say again sorry (phone) and he once again say "sorry for what??"...


geez...i dun think i need to say 'sorry' to him this year too...so juz ignore him..hehez..before go back kelvin say "becareful o.." ( i think i heard it)...hmmm form this year i know a lot of new chinese guys in perdagangan and science class that i duno...

science 1-a bit chuan...
science 2-only a guys..dulu he always alone but now he regain his happyness(i think) and now i am lonely pulak..dulu i am hyperactive..sekarang he is hyperactive..
science 3-no chinese guys...
science 4-some good some chuan..but they are friendly(i think)
science 5-i think i know some of them..one of them is the one who dun like me...and other i duno...
prinsip akaun 1,2,3-know some of them but so chuan..
perdagangan1,2,3-know some of them..a guy dun like me..and other is hong chun,adrian,ken,kelvin and otherz...some are chuan too o...


wah me so many guys enemy more than girls enemy o...(i think)..in my life if that person is not friendly/din talk to others(i mean some la but some din talk because they are quite and they are not chuan) then he/she is chuan...


oh ya today is TAN KAH SIANG birthday..our school form 4 genius..number 1 in mei exam...happy birthday o..so fish la that day i asked khai sern instead of kah siang..i ask him last week "nex tuesday is ur birthday right??" and he say "WHAT??" i forget that his birthday is on may sumthing..so fish so i keep on and say "aiya reborn la u..." and then the shoo yuen,soik yin,me and khai sern laugh..haha what a nice memory piece i have...


hmm thats all...wah so long..hehe..lets enjoy our life..keep ur smile..at least force urself to smile and when u are truely sad/unhappy go and watch PHUA CHU KANG private limited the best in singapore and JB and some say batam..lol..their slogan..when i am sad i watch it and laugh..chak see ya...