gulp gulp...huarrrrr *pup*(fall to my bed)

hmmmm really tired of the relationship between frens,teachers,companions,companion,that human....yikes...ewwww....kyaa....really stress but not stress out...later will be stress in...these day he is sad and i was better than sad...i would never happy with my skul fren but i cant find anyone(he/she) who can be my best fren..i am searching for someone that has mutual interest like me and only turn to me when anything happen...


i trust i can find him/her but later...i hope i cn find him/her A.S.A.P...if its a gurl then best fren la if guy mayb best fren/ahem ahem lar~~~...


ewww ya lately he is sad..i dunno why he is somekind cold..few weeks ago i was sad and unhappy and trying to be only fren with my best fren(its a success) i finally cn be fren with them and not bestfren coz they belong to each other i am juz an outsider...


two weeks ago i was very silent and he was happy..he ask me "hey kah yan why u so silent?..its not normal leh.." hmmm what the....what izit??u mean i was noisy when normal??yeah i guess so...


hmmm i stay alone..i can do anything alone...except for oral la...it needs pair work *faint*..i prefer alone but i hate ppl say me alone..i will whack that person no matter girl or guy include the so called normal fren..except its my family&junior(budak kecik)..i learn to not get angry no matter what they do...haiz...i hope its a success...


that day(i think its last week when my mood going up) i go to his place when physic and TRY to invite him to youth conference by saying "halo halo hmmm are u feeling sick or something??" but he was like "huh........?" with a scary look...so i said "uhhh....nth..." really scary...


hmmm i was really angry with the indian guy perdagangan...they are pervert...i use this word to describe them they are really PERVERT..well chinese guys is better at least all chinese guys i know from science,prinsip akaun and perdagangan class is nice..some of them maybe like to say bad thing but they wouldn act badly..those indians act and say too..worse!i am really fired up..wanna kick,punch and whack them!


hump..these day feeling down..because i choose to be normal fren with the two girls that i like so much(i means from the aspect of fren)..but then i feel as if i am an outsider so i choose to let go..this happen every year for me..i am juz like a volcano..the magma inside this volcano is made by my jealous and hate feeling..


form 1 i want yin ger and my rival is shu wen...suan liao lor...
form 2 i want hui ying and my rival is fui yen..suan but now i really dun wan she jor...keterlaluan la..
form 3 i want chai jing and my rival is fui yen(again?)..but now i also dun wan jor...
form 4 i want that person and my rival is that person...now still hurt...

i wonder who i want and who is my rival nex year..staying alone is nice after all..u can do thing alone and have peace...sometimes its like..hmmm see the example below...

A like B but B like C and C like A...so its a triangle right?
A like B and C like B..so its an angle right?
A like B,B like A and C like B..so this is stupid right?

lol...i was the C..tepuk tangan sebelah tidak akan ada bunyi..i am a person that bored easily..like i want that person but later i get bored...so it suit me that i am alone..i will be fren with my dark and bright side(or maybe the bright side never exist ahaha)..


chak cya...
take care...
sTaY h@PpY
-k@ReN-