hmmm...suicide...

hmmm today at skul is nice no one dare to kacau me...hehe...well but at home is the worse...when i come back my father ask me to wash all dish(well i am not angry bcoz of this)...

the thing worse is that i sleep for 4-5 hour...*cry*...i cant control myself well first i plan to find some information in internet then end up with sleeping all the day and my physics,bi,moral and bm haven done yet..bla bla bla...wawawa..*sob*

today as usual i wait for my papa at the longkang (haha i mean the tepi there..aiya duno how to express in word la)...well i oledy usual wait at there and see some pair lover holding hand (oppps not till there)hehe..

oh ya at the same time i see him and her(i think is his new gf gua) think so only..well i say i dun care but why i feel like so many neeble inside my heart..well i plan to forget him but end up remember him more and more...each time i see him i will be more suffer form avoiding form him..

that time i feel like nid some water to wash my eye hehe...y y y???haiz nvm i cry at my own room to realease my pressure..hmm how can i forget him??haiz everytime my plan end up with other thing..

chiu why i nid to be like this...okey okey love too complex for me,i cant digest it(haha digest is for food..i duno if my speeling is correct or not)maybe i can digest just friendship..hehe..i know one malay sentence/bla bla bla say 'yg pahit jgn terus dibuang dan yg manis jgn terus ditelan'..

too many thing i talk bout him rite..can sum1 tell me a way??or i nid to just relax n act like nth hepen between us??or try put another one in my heart..ohhh ya maybe i shud love HER so that i will forget HIM..

okey dun worry i am not lesbian juz that i like her reli reli much she is my friend and our friendship is the best...well this is what i thought..i duno whether she take me as her friend or not but i reli reli do love her..

hope to see her in the future "MY BELOVED ONE!!!!!!!!!!" i want to shout this word when i see her in the future but i duno can it rmb her??or do i hav that longer time??hu knows..dun worry b hepi..

okey enuf with the sad thing..start with hepi ya..pahit dulu manis kemudian ma...today physics i sit with a malay guy pengawas..he scare me..know why??he talk to himself alone and smiling alone...try to imagine it...aiyo i just cant stop laughing when i see straight into his eyes/face..

tat day introduce day(i foget jor the date but i wont forget what hepen) well malay guy sure are a great joker..when they laugh too muc then i cant control myself and laugh together..but if chinese they are making stupid joke so not funny at all especially him...

i start to like 4s2..4s2 is the best among all other class(my own opinion)well 4s2 no gengster mayb those guy are gengster looking but they are nice,they never kacau me and great in study..'wah' and 'wow' is my first reaction..the first time i see them i feel like 'aiyo gengster ar' but then i know i was wrong..i am the one who is gengster than them..*sigh* **[>.<]**