argh argh argh argh argh argh argh....

well to tell the truth i use blog to express my feeling to those "???" person...yeah exam is over..HOWEVER...stil nid take result...d*** it..u see when i say i wan go skul then i will get the answer "aiya go for what la....sit home la" but when i say "i dun wan go la...so sien" then u know whah answer i get?? "what la u ponteng ponteng huh huh??like gengster..." i feel like why me??why nt other ppl??why me??


well as u see...i finish exam-ing...then?my fren and i plan to go out..so i ask my father and he said "okay ioi?ok...i will take u all go" so i am happy...then suddenly my fren told me "its sunway" u know what i feel like...#$%XXXX....suan la i am alone after all...haiz why me??


okay so one of the human who go fui yen..she got everything that i dont..and shoo yuen too...why they got everything i dont??it look unfair ya noe??well i ask fui yen

me:hey ur papa and mama let u go out freely??
fui yen:ya..they are so open minded de
me:haiz... T.T
fui yen:ur parents just want protect u only
me:*talk in heart*protect??i rather suicide..u wont understand...

and then i really envy she gt freedom with open minded parent..loved by all and the most especially enemy i got she dont!!!my most dangerous enemy always "ting" at me and trying to do a lot of bad stuff...well i understand GOD giv us bad thing to elakkan the worst thing happen so i only sit and pray about him...he has no cure...let GOD cure him...i wont hate him..instead i prayed for him..why me??


oh ya?after this i really dun understand a lot of thing...these day being betrayed very hurt...i rather say "can i die now??" i had no meaning to live on..if i died i am 100% sure he will be happy...isn it so "???" person...i felt hurt everytime i see him bt i also need to smile to him..everytime after see him,i will cry...why me??


so conclusion why me??!!!!!!well if GOD say i did commit crime like killed then i would say "i will accept this sincerely"..bt what did i do??!!!!!past life sins??i really dun wan to sabar anymore..i had my limit..i dun like those ppl who always watching me do what and try to making me felt sad and hurting me..i dont want this d*** thing..XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!like hell i would want it...